Sparks.

Food food food~

2011-07-17T02:01:00.008+08:00

Ahhhhhh~ Finally home and resting :) I have no idea why i feel exceptionally drained today! This afternoon! ^^ Met up with Den and Patrick for our free community run at Bedok Reservoir :D Just a short distance of 4.3km :) Who knew, just by running, i earned 20bucks! WOOOOHOOO!! ^^ I've been so broke lately that every dime to me counts! I won't even lend anyone 10cents! HAHAHAH!! #Justsaying

I'm waiting for Den to upload the photos ^^

Sooooo! Right after the run, rushed back home and with only cereal in my stomach, went to watch my long await Lion King Play at MBS theatre! I HAVE TO SAY ITS DAMN GOOOODDD!! THE COLOURS, THE SINGING, THE BACKDROP TILL THE ACTING. DAMN THEY ARE GOOOOOOOOOOOODDD!!! $128 bucks for a middle sit (Y) I was pretty close to the stage.

Wanted to take more photos but i got caught only after taking 2 :(

The backdrops were really remarkable!! The characters were even better!! Love Pumba and Timon!!!! They damn funny! :P

Daddy came to fetch us afterwards :D

Ohhhh! Went on a food trail with Den, Joey, Serene, Kenneth and Tengfeng yesterday! :) Wanted to go:

But.....

Check out the prices yooooo.. Nearly fainted! O.O !!

Soooo after deciding for very very long, decided to go Big O at Wheelock since i needed to get my knee guard :)

The foood we ordered!
Den's beef stew. He thought beef steak n stew was the same!!! HAHAHHAHA DEN WILL ALWAYS BE DEN
Tf's, Serene and my BBQ Baby ribs <3
Joey's Fish&chips

Kennth's Vongole

Drooling already? MUDPIES! OMGGGG THEY WERE THE BEST !!!!!!

Lomography

2011-07-14T00:46:00.004+08:00

Just got my photos back from from scanning :) My first batch of photography was pretty much disappointing but its alright! Its the first roll afterall! :) Check it out :D

Theres only like 3 satisfying ones :/ The rest were very dark. I have no idea why! Maybe i must use flash or change the mood or something? Gonna try the color roll when my second batch of B&W is finished ^^

Well, when i first started this, i really love photography! People close to me should know. But after being exposed to lomography by someone, i felt in love with it instantly. I never dare to say anything or ask him anything cause i thought he might felt like i was some sort of stalker or copycat. But i've decided, i had to start on this & alright, a small percentage of starting lomography was because i wanted to experience his life. I mean like, i really enjoy the things he does as well. Just that i'll never have the chance to..

But now, i guess, its better this way :) Although i just lost a very good friend. I got over it :) & im too busy to deal with feelings.

Just a short update. Gotta rush my Lombok writeup for Mr Wee tmr! I am so tired once again! But i like the feeling. I feel useful :D

Reinforcements

2011-07-09T01:33:00.015+08:00

HELLLLLLOOOOO!!
The old Cheryl is back :D Thought of abandoning my blog for a new start but Kenneth just made me feel like blogging again :) The past shall be my daily lessons for my future.

Sooooooo, i guess i've missed out some major events in my life recently! 1st, 20June-25June, LOMBOK RMT OCP, 2nd, World Netball Championship event, 3rd, exams and lastly projects~

Alright! Gonna just do a quick one for the Lombok trip although i have sooooo much to say! Or who knows i'll just sidetrack and start elaborating :P If you have read my previous post, you probably would know i was really looking forward to it but not the company. You could say i went with a broken heart.

But noooooooo, Kenneth and the year3s there made everything oh-so-right for me! I was literally glued to Kenneth most of the time. Haahahha!! Our main purpose for the visit to Lombok was to help a retailer in the only mall there. Supposingly 2 retailers but the stupid surf shop backed out! TSK! But its alright, their lost~

The moment we went into the shop, we were 2hrs off schedule so everyone quickened their pace and went to do their assigned jobs. For me, Im in-charge of the backwall's painting and they had to remove alot of things of the wall and shift the furnitures so i could start. So, since i had nothing to do, i went to help unscrew stuffs on the wall and carry things. Felt like a GUY! The other girls were arranging ribbons! LIKE WHUUUUUTTT~~ Hahahha!! Totally in my blood i would say.
(I have no photos of me working sadly) I was busy!! HEHEH

The cleanliness of the shop killed me! THEIR WERE FREAKING LOT OF CREEPY CRAWLIES!!! COCKROACHES AND LIZARDS!!!!!!!!!!!!! FAINTS* The moment they unscrew something off the wall, a whole lot of them scatter! I have no idea how i survived it. Seems like the shop hasn't done any housekeeping for the past 10years. Oh! I forgot to mention its a gift shop!

Anyway, this is the after product & my painting!!
The window display team did this!
I LOVE THE HOT AIR BALLOON DECAL! I WANT ONE TOOOOOO :D Theme was : Adventure home

The shop's logo and name painting on the back wall :) Had to prime the entire wall white with Jeremy! & there were cockroaches running pass. We had no choice but to paint them over :X Nice Nice?
Combined the gift wrapping counters together. Had to screw those panels in! Unscrewing and screwing stuffs are hard work people!

They shifted this enormous rack too! This is the new location already :)

After 2 days of hardwork! Waterpolo time with the Year3s and teachers :D! Dark secrets were revealed here. (Giggles) But actually is no big deal to us. Just shocking and prolly no one will respect Mr wee anymore :P As seen from the group photos, he has SHORT SLEEVES TATTOOS!!! Like O.M.G ! He don't have the ahbeng look please. He is always so shy! I spotted it during dinner on the first day :P
I thought it it was around the arm.

Poor Kenneth got whacked and his nose ring made his nose bleed. Dumb boy! Wear jewelry to a polo match?! HAHAH!!
With Mr Weeeee!! He is sucha nice teacher! Can't stop laughing everytime i see him
Reason for posing gangsterly here is? Check out Mr Weee's arms yo!
The best time! :)

& we were treated to a seafood dinner by the shop's lady boss (: Heheh! & Once again beeeer! I hate beeer, will have beer belly sia! So only took sips and shared with Kenneth. Didnt regret sia, cause the next day.... Later you'll know.

Their local beer. Not bad ley!

I was on a low-carbo diet. SO i finished the entire fish -.- & My Course manager even wanted to give me 2nd serving. (shocked) !!

Kenneth!

Jeremy!

We went to a vacantional school there. We felt like superstars! Cause everywhere we went, the students wanted to take photos with us! & they even said i looked like i'm from Korea. WAHAHAHAH compliment? I saw girls checking out Kenneth tooo!! Hahahahahah!! Meanwhile, he was dozing off~
Isabelle!
Cs!

At the end of the day before dinner, Jason Jacq Kenneth YeeSwen ZhiYong and I decided to go for massage! AWKWARD MUCH!!! Thinking it would be safer to have a guy accompanied was WRONGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!! HAAHAHHAHAH! (Kenneth, memory of a lifetime huh! Our secret man!) :X But still, it was super relaxing and ticklish. Couldn't stop laughing and my stomach was roaring out loud! -.-
Thats where we had our milk bath & i accidentally drained it all out...
I think he is sleeping

Fooot massage! YAY! SHIOK MUCH AFTER A LONG DAYYYYY :):)

OHHHHHHHHH AND AT DINNER! JASON AND I SANG -IM YOURS WITHE LIVE BAND PLAYING!!! :D:D Experience of a lifetime again! Kenneth was playing the electric guitar at the back tooo!

& not forgetting the stupid one for one that killed Kenneth and I. I think my alcohol resistance level just increased tremendously after this 12cups!

Following day!! DIVING!! YAYYYYYYYY I WAS SUPER SUPER LOOKING FORWARD TO IT! Managed to wakeup. Had to wake Kenneth up like a baby! He literally stripped leaving only his boxers on last night! WTH! Luckily he never puke or anything. Or else i'll put him at the balcony. Prevent him for dirtying my lovely bed! HA!

& I didn't go for the diving in the end. It was way too ex for me. Can't afford it. But fear not! I thought about it and i'd save that amount of money to go Msia to learn and get my license! :):) So i went snorkling instead!! ITS AS FUNNNNN!!

Saw countless sea turtles and coooool stuffs! I LOVE THE SEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA (SCREAMSSSSSS)

The pro diver!! Heheh
On the deck enjoying the breeze :):) LOVING THE SUN!
AHHHHHHHHH~ CLEAR WATERS~
The fins! I'll never be able to walk in them. Super clumsy!

BRAIDED MY HAIR! I love the beads and i thought this way, i am able to grow my hair! At the same time, still look nice and girly :P:P
Our snorkeling instructor! Super thinnnn!!

At night~ CLUBBING TIME!!! :D:D Survived 10shots of :

TEQUILA ! I am god! I actually feel proud of it. I drank the most but i wasn't... well entirely gone. At the very least i knew what i was doing and managed to walk back to the hotel! :X Coma-ed throughout the night and woke up not knowing whose room i was in :O

It was Jeremy's roooom! LOL! His fat face was in front of me. WAHAHAHHAHAHAH :) NO HANGOVER! WHEEEEEEEEEEE :D:D

Not forgetting,

My roooom, 2015 is the best rooooom! DIRTY-THINGS FREEEEE! :D Thankyou for the 5 peaceful nights! At the end of the trip, there were a total of 7people in my room cause their rooms had problems. HAHAHHA.

BEST TRIP EVER! BEST KEPT SECRETS!! What happens in Lombok, stays in Lombok (Loves!!)

I'll blog about WNC after my last duty on Sunday! :) Waiting for the photos to be up!
I'm making myself busy by doing events ^^ Went for Marina Shape run 2011 race expo this morning too! :):)

I'm getting myself back slowly. I just really wanna do well for my modules and below a B = fail. Xuanru taught me this last time and im working towards it! I won't let my projects pull me down. NOOOO I WILL NOT! Even if it takes for me to solo the entire thing for allll modules, i will make sure i get at least a B for it! I 'll gather all the help i can get :)

CHERYL AIN'T BACKING DOWN!
Hate me, whatever~ I think some people should really take a good review of their reflections and actions before judging. Like seriously? Sort out your priorities as a student. Please don't put your personal feelings into school work. Gladly appreciated! I told myself, we can still be normal friends. I can turn a blind eye but seems, its not likely not be oblivious to obvious behaviors. SCREW YOU!

Rolling in the deep

2011-05-31T22:01:00.002+08:00

I SUPER REGRET NOT GOING BACK FOR THE LOMBOK BRIEFING YESTERDAYYYYYYYY!!! :(:(
I was supposed to have a briefing for the overseas trip this coming June, after studying at Tamp, i couldn't absorb further so i decided to go look for Jasmine since it was only 4pm and the briefing will be at 7pm.

Jas said to take 67 from interchange and alight when i see a Great eastern building. ETA = 40mins. Around 40mins, i didnt see any building! When Jas texted me, i was already at Lavender, she told me ive missed my stop -.- I was VERY PISSED seriously! I wanted to alight when i see the nearest MRT station or something, BUT NOOOO NON IN SIGHT! The bus was flooded with people and i felt super lost.....

The bus went all the way to where Burger Shack was, and guess what. I found BOTANICAL GARDENS during the ride -.- (Memories much) ANYWAY! Thats not the point, i wanted to get back to school so i didnt dare to anyhow alight and i didn't want to cab just because of some briefing. So i decided, i wont be going already. Super angry with myself. WHY AM I ALWAYS ALWAYS GETTING LOST! Everytime i get lost, i lost something important :/

Who knew~ i ended up at Chua Chu Kang -.- I sat on the bus for freaking 2hrs! I couldn't take it anymore .. Cabbed back with surcharged _|_ WASTED 2HRS OF MY LIFE AND 20BUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I thought the worst was over, when i was in school today, i was wondering why my friends and lecturers keep reminding me to go see Sam Tan (course manager) privately. I thought he just wanna tell me the details personally or something. Until my teacher told me that they didn't do th groupings ytd cus I WASN'T THERE! THEY WANTED TO APPOINT ME AS ONE OF THE LEADERS!! & my tcher mentioned that, bcus i wasn't there ytd, SAM TAM MIGHT HAVE CHANGED HIS MIND OR SOMETHING !! Like i'll seem like some irresponsible person -.- OMGGGGGGGGGGGGG~~

Its not about the leader thing i am so concern about, if i successful manage to do well in the role, i would say it will be a plus point in my portfolio next time. My results r shitty already. Need to find all ways and means to at least do well in something right? :/

Sighhhhhhhhhhhh~ I may have just let a goood chance go pass me. I came up with a crappy excuse of having an urgent matter at home :(:( I'll only know tmr. WISH ME LUCKKKKK!!!! (prays)

Swam today! Couldn't perform, muscles are still aching badly after the 7km run. Hahahha, still can't forget that shiok feeling. I should try it again sooooon!! (Y) Night runs are the best!

Alright, gotta head to my notes. HAVE TO MEMORIZE AT LEAST 2 CHAPTERS!! Studying is like running a marathon, pain will befriend us :) JIAYOUUUUU EVERYONE!! :D

To put it nicely, friends. Bluntly, i don't want to talk to you

2011-05-31T00:26:00.002+08:00

Spare me PLEASE!!!!!!!

I realise, i only blog everytime when I am troubled. Making it seems like blog post are filled with emo thoughts -.- Idc, i am gonna do another one :(

Exams are next week and I have to admit i am highly affected by the people around me still! May it be friends, or... I SERIOUSLY WANT TO JUST TAKE OUT MY HEART FOR THIS WEEK AND CONCENTRATE FOR ONCE. Not like i cannot focus on my studies or what, but i everytime i go home, i end up with a black face and DO NOT WANT TO TALK TO ANYONE! I shove everyone, and i mean everyone off. Like tell them" Please dont bug me"

People ask me, you go study alone? I am like hmmm, yeaaaaa. In my brain, im thinking : Is there a problem? -.- Is something wrong with me? I prefer to study alone. I feel like i don't have to fake anything. Its just me and my notes.

Aiyaaaaaaaa~ I've become such an introvert. I don't know myself anymore. Said this like a million times. FYI, for people who don't know how i am like before, you will think, "THIS BITCH IS FUCKING WEIRD".

Why is everything so hard... I just wanna be perfect. I really really really reallly really want to just please everyone and be happy while i continue to upgrade myself. i wanna go back to secondary school :( I miss my friends, active me and high self esteem me without faking anything.

I am looking forward to my Lombok trip, but definitely not the company :( Friends don't ditch you when you are in trouble. Or don't even bother to make the effort to look at you and say hi when you just reach school. (I wasn't alone at that time)

Holidays starts on the June10! But........
& the second week, it will be my turn to be overseas.
Just great~

Its just school

2011-05-11T23:25:00.005+08:00

School has started and managed to adapt to the new semester after week2. Well, at least thats for school work wise. For friends, I guess i only managed to decide to put everything aside and seriously focus only last night :) I somehow just xiang tong le.

Well, i just thought that, if i want to enjoy my trip to LOMBOK Indonesia, i really have to just forgive and forget. & even if it takes for me to work 10times harder than others to get my desired grades, i will! I AM GOING TO STUDY HARD, EXPERIENCE MUCH AND JUST MAKE FRIENDS :) I can do it i know! (:

Its only week 3 but there is a hell load of things coming in already :( ! & i reallly hate market research! Teachers all guai lan!! & the dumb lab work thing is PBL? WTH -.- Its superrrrr difficult to learn ourselves and we can't even get the software to try it out ourselves. (Jesus! What were they thinking)

Got my pay on Mondayyyyyy!! Yay! It wasn't much as compared to CK last time. But i bought a pair of shoes which is super unexpected!! But i love it omgggggggg!! :):) Of course, he has the same pair too which makes me like it more! Teeehee!!

Overdued photos. I'm just gonna upload a few ^^

Bought this reallly nice headband! Expensive for a hadband~ But it was toooo nice! I couldn't resist it :X

I MISS LOELLE SIM JIAHUA AND LIM JIT KHAI! :(
Ohhhhhh i wannnna watch a movie damnit! My Fast&Furious5, my Thorrrrr~ :/ Funshion! faster come out!

I'm lazy to continue already~ Shall post more this weekend :):)

Pain with sweetness

2011-05-06T02:00:00.002+08:00

2 weeks of school have passed and i feeeeel mentally tired. Im sick of pretending im sick of smiling all day while inside of me im screaming. I thought i've settled down and found the right people. However, its back to where i started. Is it so fucking hard to find true friends and not judge?

What's wrong you people? Not happy then say la, don't have to give those ridiculous eyes or behave like the world revolves around u -.- Gimme a break man. Outtalk me if u can. Ready any time any where! Not like i have something to be guilty of.

Thank god for strawberries and Sam today (L) I feeel better already.

Pace myself

2011-04-23T00:15:00.009+08:00

Its been quite a week! :) It was Week0, the freshman orientation. business school is too big for the freshies to stay over so we only could spend time with them for 2 days 0nights :( Which i feel they can't really bond with one another lur. It was the same case for me last year. Took quite some time to adapt unlike Design school or others :(

Was looking forward to it! Wonder how will out freshies be and all. & when they came in. Woah~~ They had branded goods all over them! Girls have like LV bags, Gucci bags, Prada wallets and all! & i looked at what i was carrying, it was a 4dollar worth of bag that i got from Taiwan. Depressing~ O.O

Some of them were really fun and enthu! The others were just... in their own world. Too shy to open up yet i guess. Had fun with the other SLs though! Made new friends too!! :D & i can finally rmb every step for TP mass dance :PPP

& DAY2! We didnt have much time to teach the freshies the cheers. Sort of like to warm them up. & the seniors were super anti climax -.- Anonnying* We were really worried we won't win the Best School trophy for the 7th time! Business school has already been winning it 6times in a row for the past 6years! Of course we can't let our batch ruin everything right!

The freshies were not cooperating and it worries us :( However! Business won 1st in Regatta, olympiat! The cheer and stomp did well toooo!! :D Engine school was our enemy! & Applied Science joined in too. SO IRRITATING! Why must they be so competitive~

They even said mean things about us -.- Anyway, its over and we won the 7th TIME!!! (: In their face literally! Went for Jam&Hop after everything and it was funnnnnn! :D:D Had the Hewark people and Charaine, WZ, Eileen, 2 freshies- HongTing and Bobby, Van, kuien and shili etc~

Sweat like some dog like that! UBERRRR HOT!!! Hope to spend more time with Hewark soooon! :D Miss them!

Timetable is out and Charaine, Eileen, Wan Zhuang and I are split to 4 different classes distinctively :( New class will be a new challenge for me. Hopefully i can adapt and meet nice people there that actually is concern about their work :(

I've got Jap for CDS and at least I know i have Andy in the same tutorial class as me :) Finally someone who actually is serious about work ^^

&&&& I'm going Malaysia tmr! So sudden! But hell yeahhhhh! :D Can't reveal too much here

Camp fever

2011-04-21T00:07:00.003+08:00

Im having camp fever now!!!!!!!! I wish i was in FO !! :(
I'LL NOT MISS IT NEXT YEAR MAN!
Post more about it during the weekends! Photos coming up! & Freshies are fun loving :D
CHOU WEN XIAN IS IN TP !!!!!!! Screams*

Im enjoying my life now

2011-04-11T23:44:00.011+08:00

Last week was a hectic week for me! Sing K with Loelle for 5hrs straight on my off day :) The room was freezing!!! I guess thats where i got a cold. Its been like 2yrs since i fell sick. On the day itself, i was just telling Loelle " You're the weak one! You don't have to worry about me." Hahahhahah!! & the next moment, BAM! I got score throat, flu and fever came soon after -.-

Regardless of my illness, i still went for my Sentosa trip with Charaine, WanZhuang and Eileen :D:D It was actually the 1st time after knowing them for a year, I've ever gone on an outing with them. Long story about my friendship story with Charaine and Eileen. But I really don't wanna think about what's gonna happen in year 2. Like who will have in my class next year and all.

Although i want all my close friends in the same class as me next year, but on a second thought, they don't study. I'm really afraid it will affect my grades and all. Especially projects! I'm not looking down on them but its really my biggest worry :( At the same time, im worried i don't click with the new people :(:(

For example, i always attend lectures but they don't. What if i paiseh to go alone and don't go too. Although i usually have self-control but we never know right? :/

Anyway! Regardless of all these troubles, i still had fun with them! Photos:

After that, i somehow still managed to find the energy to meet Hewark for dinner!! Astons was too crowded so they headed for JustAcia instead :) I was late!! Made Peihuan wait so long. So paiseh :(

We still went to play arcade, ate Taohuey and played L4D with the remaining people :) I HAD TO THE URGE TO PLAY SO BADLY!! I havent touched L4D for at least half a year! It was a pity we didn't finish the campaign round as i was racing for my last bus :X Who knew my brother and daddy were around the corner! So they came to fetch me! HEHEHEHHE :P

Gotta thank Peihuan and Shawn.L for accompanying me. They say if i wait alone there will kena picked up. AWWWW!! I have sweeet friends :D

The next day, had Sl Teaparty. A refresh cheers activity :)

a small dinner outing with Hewark again :) Wanted to play pool but i wanted to go home early so gave it a missed after seeing that there were no available tables. But before that, we lepak for awhile and bitching session! :P

CASE 1683 GUYS!!!! ^^

Sorry for the messy photos! I just realised i forgot to change the settings :( Bear with it!

Work today at Levis Ngee Ann City wasn't as bad as i thought. I was expecting really mean people but i guess my performance left a good impression on them (Y) HELL YEAH! Was suppose to have Swenson's dinner at Marina Sqaure with Patrick, Eleen, Den and Daren. But everyone had something on so it has to be cancelled. It was to celebrate Den's birthday but i guess i only can celebrate with him Thursday and acc buy his Salomon.

Can't just not celebrate his birthday. Hes been really nice to me :) Have to appreciate it :)

I really really want to see how does a rock climbing competition works! SO COOOOL!

I need a doctor to bring me back to life

2011-04-07T01:49:00.002+08:00

Only managed to talk to Sam awhile today :( I can't we actually chatted till 5am last night! Wow! We never run out of topic to talk about (Y)

Anyway, we were on a subject just now and it suddenly struck me that. I don't have any memories with my boyfriends that i can actually boast about! Like tell my friends, ehhhhh u know they did this this.. or surprise me with blahblah~

Its kinda.. i dont know how to say it. I know its no big deal and im still young and all. But still ! I can't believe i gave them my all but what i got was " Too bad, its just my personality. Deal with it." Of course they didn't say that but to sum it up, it was like that.

Sighhhhhs! Emo night :( I hate this feeeling! I just wanna step out of my shell! Maybe thats why im still in my non-sociable state :( Glad i have my girls backing me up (hugs)

Just came here to rant!
xoxo

I wanna see your peacock! HEWARK FTW! (L)

2011-04-03T02:11:00.003+08:00

Hey all! Im back from my TP SL camp! :) Alright, that was like 2days ago thing. Had a hell load of fun! The first day was a complete bore for me. I couldn't step out of my introvert character yet cause i really didn't know anyone in the group. But 2nd day was so much better! All of us juts decided to step forward and be more on :D

Nevertheless! Day 3 was the best!! Had water games and all :) All of us were plainly enjoying ourselves ! ^^

Day1:
We had dirty games! It was the main game of the day and no warning about it :/ Did not bring any clothes that i'll be preparing to throw so had to bear with horrible stench while rinsing my clothes :( We were made to roll around a mixture of -> Tomato sauce, vinegar, soya sauce, black sauce, kaya, grass jelly, eggs, flour and a whole lot of other stuff.

My wound was effffing pain :( It got infected after it. We couldnt bathe until before supper :(

Day2:
We had this breakfast game. We had to run around searching for clues to so called 'earn our breakfast'. I think its the morning and we were very tired, so everyone was pretty low :/ Very disappointed with our performance and after a group talk. We decided to wakeup!

Started making more cheers and everyone got hyped up! There was like a battle of the sexes challenge. Selected girls and guys were made to blow a freaking STRAWBERRY CONDOM! They just open it and they had to blow it as big as possible until it burst! Extreme max!

They also played with tampons. JOKE SIA!!! :O Nightwalk was the highlight of the day :) I was really confident i won't get scared or anything cause i know its all done by people. Who knew! I was the one ended up screaming :/ AWWWWWWWWWW~ They scare me. & the prep for it was magnificent! Seriously! Have to appreciate the progger's efforts ^^ It looooks very very real!

Really really don't like people yelling n banging tables! :(

Day3:
Water activity! HEHEHEHHE FUNNNNNN! Had to wash each other's hair while sitting in a circle. Clarence helped me make a mohawk. HAHAHHAH! Coool shit! Soap went into my eyes :( Everyone was already so closed and united. Although i still can't rmb some girl's names :/ (Complete failer) But all still close :)

We'll be having a SL tea party! & i neeed a partner. Who should i go with? Hmmmmmm, Anyone? :) So exciting! Not forgetting to mention, our group won the best cheeeers! :(Y)(Y)

So today! I went for the F1, red bull roadshow interview :) Babe accompanied me (L) I hope i'll get my desired role! & i went for a haircut by impulse :O I was suppose to meeet Den and Daren at HarbourFront for a run at Sentosa, but ended up, prayers dragged so i couldn't make it :/

Anyway, i dont think i ever wanna run with someone who looks down on me yet still acts friendly. Pftttt! I got a new colour and bangs! I couldn't stand the growing of hair process! Its so long :( I had to cut it.

How is it?! Do i loook okay?!

Never forgotten

2011-03-29T00:04:00.013+08:00

The whole of last week i wasn't booked for work! I'm not sure if i should say awesome much or suck much. Firstly, i don't get paid but i got the whole week to play! (Hell yeah!?) Alright, somehow my memory from Monday-Wednesday is pretty much gone -.-

I only can remember myself having an evening run at MacRitchie with Den on Wednesday. HE WAS LATE!!!! Nearly killed him, waited for half an hour. Oh well better than not coming at all :) So run run run, had cramps +shit feel+ sleepy.. Still managed to run at least 5km i guess! I realised my usual routine for my runs is 5km!!! WOW.. & i thought it was only 3km or so~ I AM A HAPPYGIRL MAN! :P

Went for Chompchomp for a big dinner-supper! ATE ALOT! felt that my entire run was a total was of time. My calories have probably already gained back :( But i like hunting for cheap good food :( Don't judge me!* roarrrrr~

Anyway, Friday, waited for Loelle at home before heading to Johnson's housewarming :D Stayed over there! (Guilty for lying to parents) Had loads of fun there!! At the beginning, it was pretty awkward for me cause ex boyf was there but it was okay after playing guitar hero at night!!

Alyssa & Felicia came too but only for the BBQ, so we had some drinks. Okay maybe not some.. Loelle & i ended up clearing the entire bottle of vodka =.- I wonder how we did that o.O There was this once we wanted to faster finish it up so we could play, we poured half cup of Vodka n only alittle bit of mixer. WTHHHHHHHHHH ONE SIP OF IT BLOODY HELL KILLED SOME OF MY BRAIN CELLS! OMGGGGGG it was super burning... I couldn't feel my brains for like at least 5mins .. It feeling is like eating a huge scope of wasabi but not spicy!!! -.-

Okayyyy~ So was on high mode for like an hour. Cooled down after pee-ing. Luckily no pukes nor i was drunk. Just tipsy :) BABE! WE ARE GETTING BETTER MAN!! We were just whiney! I remembered i sang the vocals of rock band HORRIBLY! I was humming the tune MONOTONOUS =/ i fi could hear myself then, prolly would have killed myself. IM FREAKING ADDICTED TO THE DRUMS AND THE GUITAR! Although i still can't coordinate my feet w my hands for drums and get used to the guitar keys. & Junde''s face while playing the guitar is freaking -___________- Its the same throughout !aiyaaaaa, no pictures for the night.

We played guitar hero and Halo2 all night,. I suck at Halo i swear! I cant aim n shooot ! :( Yx says: Its entertainment to watch Loelle and i play ! (Is it that bad!?) Brought my lappy there to watch movies while the rest played the real guitar while Loelle sings. Why her voice so nice?!!!

& suddenly everyone wanted to watch the movie i was watching - 127 HOURS! Hehehehheh so plucked my lappy to the TV while we ate macdelivery. For those who have watched the show, MY-GOD, the cutting of his hand part is Efffing... HOLY-SHIT! Like i would totally just killed myself! I wouldn't even last 2days -.- GO WATCH IT! HIGHLY RECCOMMANDED! :)

& Loelle just cant stan d it. She gets dizzy at the sight of bloood.! LIKE WHUUUUTTTT~ HAHAHAHH cute sia! We slept at 6am and woke up at 10.30am the next day.

I got up due to kenneth's HAILER-SNORE! Not exactly snore, his nose was block so it sounded like a train passed by or something -.- Loelle stole some of my blanket when i was asleep, i pulled it back :X HAHA! We wokeup, everyone drank milk like little kids, went to played some basketball and went swimming :D

Loelle couldn't swim due to something and so i went down together w th boys. JUDNE JUST WONT STOP SPLASHING ME WITH WATER!!!! -.- They felt like slaps! & He aims the ear! :()

Johnson borrowed a underwater camera! (Y) I know i look horrible! Don't mind! & the sides had rough edges.. I cut my toe while getting out of the water -.- Bleeed again... home sweet home after~ I was super tiredddddddddddddddddd! I dropped dead after dinner at home :( Couldn't even talked to SamSam :(

Talking about bleeeding! I recalled something! I went for a run with Adora and Ethel on thursday morning! Met them at Adora's house and ran around their house area. Only at the beginning, like the first 1m, i tripped over some uneven road and flew n dived -.- SUPER EMBARRASSING!!! Pain yes but i could stand up immediately :/ My right shoulder has some scratches, the rest are below:

But continued to run anyway :) I only realised then that i've improved! I wasn't even panting after 2km ^^ Good job girls. They havent run for months! Consider good le ^^ There was a slope somemore. Decided to crash Anderson Pri (our pri sch) after breakfast :D Walked in cautiously but to our surprised! NO ONE STOP US! Th security just ask us to disappear somewhere in the school. HAHAHAHHA! sO WE WENT TO PLAY BBALL! Found a ball there :P Lucky us! (Y) Took photos around the school. BROUGHT BACK LOADS OF MEMORIES :( Alright, have to stop here. My clothes are dry :) Have to finish up my bag tonight so i wouldn't hv to rush tmr ^^ Night allllll! ^^ Miss my girls!

xoxo

I wont die!

2011-03-19T00:16:00.008+08:00

This week was pretty happening for me! :) On Wednesday, went out with Adora and Ethel right? Yepppp we kept changing plans! Till we ended up sitting out Luge + Skyride at Sentosa, camwhore at the beach and at vivo! Yeppp thats just how we spent our evening ^^
The skyride was reallly scary somehow! I reallly no balls man! I cant take heights anymoreeeee! :x But the second time was muchhhh better (Y) Someone in front laughed at us luh! We were the only ones we screamed slightly when we sat on it O.O Embarrassing*

Also! There was OCBC Appreciation dinner for all leaders :) Had a great time catching up with the others (Y) The MC and the whole thing was boring!! Except the food n teh company was great!! :D

So reluctant to know that i'll only get to work with all of them for Standard Chartered at the EOY! :( & Mr interesting didnt attend the dinner. Siannnnnn! But overall it was still gooood. After the dinner ended, Patrick, Daren, Den and I went to Prata house there! Instead we ate Tou hua! HAHAHAHAHHA all diet conscious :P I reallly hope to match their speeed on Sunday!!

We gonna do Trail @ MacRitchie! :/ I wonder if i can survive! Bless me ...:/

Animals enjoys the sun!

2011-03-16T12:09:00.006+08:00

Met up with my basketball team yesterday! :):) Although im not exactly part of the team anymore but they still asked me out anyway. Realllly touched~! I was always afraid i'd b awkward around them cause i don't fit in but somehow, i feeel much more comfortable now!

We had an outing to Anchorvale CC's swimming complex! Spammed tanning lotion and played the longgggg fun slides! SUPER FUN!! :D It would have been better if the sun was stronger :( Oh yes, not to mention i was starvingggggggggg while we were otw to NEX to have our meal. We decided to split into 2 groups to eat cause we all had different cravings. I had sushi cravings so we went looking for Sakae but NEX don't have! :(

Decided to enter Ichiban in the end cuase there was really worth it $5 meal and its damn filling! We were cautious about picking out the sushi's off the menu as we were afraid of the price. But surprisingly! The totaly bill, everyone only had to pay 9bucks!! Furthermore, we realised the cashier person key in wrongly! MUAHAHAHAHHAHA (Y)(Y)

Doesn't look alot ot you right? But woah! The $5 meal has rice and udon! (Fat) :/ While digesting, we just camwhored! & Iphone-ers were showing off the effects for photos! Hahahha!

Alright, have to admit its nice :P

Suppose to walk around to digest but ended up eating up more. NEX IS LIKE A FAT PLACE! (Zoey calls it the fat place) THERES FOOOD EVERYWHERE! :X I had yoguru and Tingyi went to buy her durian pancake. & after awhile, they head to sogurt which is when i totally regretted buying my yoguru -.- I shared with Zoey as she put too much! Which means. DOUBLE YOGURT FOR ME :( My run for the week is totally gone~ :/

Part off with the rest of ballers and continued our journey to Bugis! ITS BEEN AGES SINCE I LAST WENT THERE TO SHOP!!! O.o Totally unexpected shopping plan. I bought a number of items. I got a pair of vintage shoe for only 10bucks!!! Had to buy a red top for appreciation dinner tmr. Its 10 but i dont really like it. But i guess i'll have to make do with it :( & A korean throwover for 18! I really like it alot! My style plus can match w alot of things :D

Ohyessss, im going out with Adora and Ethel later. Jiahua won't be able to make it due to school :( I really hate her design school! Shes so weak yet have to face so much stress now -.-

Unexpected trip to Butter later. Afterall its Wednesday! I havent clubbed for a long timeeeee! I have nothing to wear and w/o Jh, its gonna be different :( Of course not as if it will be boring with A & E, but i prefer to have hyper Jh around :(

Got a job tooo! From Alyssa's company. I thought im marked as quit but the person-in-charge told me that she gave my a few days to cool down before giving me another job :x So this weekend i have to work :( Siannnn~ means i have to cancel my Sentosa trip and go for training on Friday.

Ohwell! After all the spending yesterday, i do need an income! HAHA! Alright, gotta go do my housework now. Tooooodles!

Cuisines

2011-03-14T18:37:00.002+08:00

Stayed home the whole day today. Ran for my routine run this morning and I'VE IMPROVED!!! :) Hahahah! At least i only stopped once when i reached the slope and after the run, i didnt even feel as breathless as the first time! So its time to take another step! 7km! :) How nice if i can run all day and don't feel tired~

Went for a hair cut just now. Alright more like a trim :P Hair please grow faster~ I want my bob back! This hair is really hard to maintain although i like it ^^ Oh god... Im feeling hungry already~ MUM PLEASE BRING ME FOR A GOOD JAP MEAL NOW!! :( I wanna eat sushi and Korean's spicy soup~ :( Now i wish i had a boyfriend who will actually bring me to satisfy my cravings :/ I dont seem to meet anyone so considerate :(

Zzzz!

It only gets better or worst. Depending on you

2011-03-12T21:57:00.003+08:00

Hey'll! Sorry for the lack of updates! My entire week was filled with "THE WORST/BEST_____ EVER!"

First, My 1st two days at work was horrid! Th China woman was unreasonable and shes totally being a bitch! I couldn't take it the 2nd day. Quarreled with her and even cried after i called Alyssa n Felicia to whine! IT DOES NOT USUALLY HAPPEN TO ME! I don't just cry over minor things. She was being an anal! Tried to find trouble with me after i went toilet, saying i go too long an all that shit. Ahhhhhhh! Screw her ! I just had to walk out on her since she likes to say " If we want to go, she won't force us to stay". Geeeees She don't appreciate us anyway, so why do we slog our lives to get sales for her while she Facebook -.-

(THE WORST DAY EVER!)

Next, long waited UNIVERSAL STUDIO TRIP with Johnson, Junde and Jiahua! The triple 'J's ! It was a totally unexpected group of people i went with. I thought i would go with Alyssa they all or Adora n Ethel. Hahah! Anyway, we had loads of fun there! But Jiahua had to leave her cus one of her group members said she did not do anything. Like so OMG... They know her for 1 yr already still don't understand her personality meh! Dumbassss!! ~ After she left, we had the entire roller cooster for ourselves! We sat the first row and the entire thing was EMPTY! WAHAHAHHAHA! (Y)

The photos are taking forever to be uploaded! So just click the link below to see them all! I used my dad's EOS camera to take. Hence the realllly big size!

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?id=632507433&aid=256743

( THE BEST DAY EVER!)

I've been starting to train for my first 10km marathon at the end of the year. So i've been running at Macritchie and around my house area to Thomson and back. Its a really big looop! I have to train my stamina for up-slopes man! It killed me ! :/ Not forgetting to mention, the last time i ran a long distance run was AGES AGO!!!! :( My stamina has dropped alot! I guess no pain to gain! Im pushing myself further each time. I may only improve a 1 or 2KM but to me its still an improvement! I'll hit 10km without stopping and with speed with more trainings :):)

Had my run @ MacRitchie with Den today this morning around 10am. It was much better than the very first time with Daren. The first time, i ran up one slope and couldn't take it anymore. I started walking!!!! OMG I COULDNT ACCEPT IT MYSELF!! ( THE WORST RUN EVER) Did my own training on Friday, attempted the Sin Ming Ave slope and still damn tired! But today, i had an improvement! I ran up the slope and did not stop till the next 2KM or so?! Totally satisfied! :D:D

After the run, Den decided to go to th Tree Top Walk. I've never been there before so agreed :) BUT!!! The longer we walk., the path got more difficult and when we reached, we realized it was closed!!! So we had to walk out... & guess what! we ended up at SIN MING AVE!!! Near my house! I FREAKING FREAKED OUT! WE WERE SUPER SUPER UBER FAR AWAY FROM MACRITCHIE AND WE HAD TO WALK BACK!! We dont hv any cash to bus back :/ Just imagine~ We walked the long way out from MacRitchie's forest and we still have to continue walking to thomson plaza, pass LongHouse, pass Mt Alvenia Hospital and than we reach -.- IT WAS THE WORST TRIP EVER!!! My aches haven't recovered after USS and run w Daren. After this walk, i cant feel my thighs anymore!!!! Its aching so bad! :/

Ohyes, i forgot to mention how i got to know Den and Daren! Yep, i was volunteer for the OCBC Cycle event last week. Made alot of friends there ^^ They were the ones that motivated me to start my runnning :):) Being a leader is so much more fun!

These people really reminded me to be true to myself and reminded me of i was :) I really hope to work with them again for th next event! :):) They are not just smart, yet hardworking in whatever they are doing regardless of CCA/studies (Y)

Also! Went to join Junde and Kenneth for kite flying ytd :) But the wind wasn't good so the kite couldnt go up. BUT ONE THING, JUNDE'S KITES ARE DAMN COOOOOL! GOT LIGHTS AND OCTOPUS SOMEMORE! Junde never fails to fascinate me everytime i see him ^^

True friends are hard to come by

2011-02-26T13:05:00.002+08:00

Met up with my lovely girls yesterday for dinner! :) They never fail to make me feel like exams are over and forget ALL my misery! (hearts) The photo isn't yesterday's but its the only recent photo i have with them :(

We talked so much but didn't eat as much as expected. Stupid gastric came to hunt me again in the afternoon when i was studying with Wanzhuang and Charaine at the airport. Although i didn't finish the paper i was suppose to complete, but i found it productive for m even though i was teaching them (Y) I learn as well (: * Charaine was so sweeeeeet to buy me a hot milo when she said she was going to the washroom! (AWWWWWW~)

Anyway! Im looking forward to the end of my exams and start working! I want a new crumpler and TOMS !

Fitting in

2011-02-23T00:40:00.003+08:00

My blog is so dead. But i'll still come here to rant if i have to.

Exams are round the corner and Macroeconomics paper is on Friday! I really really really scared i can't get my A back due to my projects that pulled me down :( Im really aiming for at least a 3.2 GPA this semester to pull everything up.

Did serious mugging just now at Starbucks alone. Jiahua couldn't join me as she is rushing her P1 as well. Its killing her. Re-studied Business Statistics and it killed me! I really can't find the critical for n > 30!! No matter how hard i try, i just cant! The notes didn't state and im going INSANEEEEEEEEE!!!! :'( I feel so useless and all my friends arent able to help too cause they are all last time muggers but somehow they still do well. Life is UNFAIR!!! :( Im like stucked at 2 chapters becus of it.

I called Jiahua to whine, the moment i say " babbeeeee im so stressed up!" I cried. LIKE IN PUBLIC LITERALLY! I don't do that often. I feel so eeffing useless :/ & all that constant reminders for me to stay strong was practically gone in a split second!
I remember when i was attached, when i had times like this, it made no difference if i had a boyfriend or not. One just laughed, the other just did not know what to say. So im basically facing this on my own again. At least have Jiahua's encouragements.

Last night, Xuanru just msn-ed me and just typed " Jiayou!" I was so touched! :) To me its an energy booster. He is right, less than a B = fail. So i mustn't fail! I've worked so hard throughout the semester and i won't like this main exam affect me. Im getting so tired*

Alright! I feel better now :) Im heading back there to study again. Its really productive for me.

Last Saturday, went to my OCBC cycle briefing and celebrated Bruce's birthday. Someone i knew since Pri6 but its the first time celebrating his birthday! The OCBC cycle thing was boring but i met lots of people there :) They are all nice and mature. Even a 16 yr old canoe racing girl is so much more mature than most of my friends in poly! Played card games to bond among ourselves. They are alll so humorous! Not forgetting, theres a cute guy in my crew!

The birthday celebration was nothing special for the birthday boy but it was really sweet! His friends surprised him at a romantic place at Khatib and although i knew only the bday boy and Jiahua, i still had fun! & it was boring at all! I cant believe they are from TP design ! First look and you will think they are malay ahbengs! Hahahahhahah!! They prepared drinks and played drinking games of course! They were all so fun-loving and cute!

Bruce was nice enough to lend me his singlet to wear cause my top was SOAKING! :) Jiahua wanted to play the water badly~ I was reluctant cus i had makeup on. But got tempted and played anyway :P & YES MY MAKEUP SMURGED!!! AND I LOOKED LIKE MULAN!

Just like that!
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA It was HILARIOUS!! & once again i feel like i should belong to design. Or perhaps its just my group of friends ;/
Not that im being choosy over who my friends are. Just that I can't find a place i fit in.

Sucks to be me

2011-02-02T23:26:00.002+08:00

Hi!
Well, there was this exchange program to Finland. I really wanted to go! Its like for 18days and i would be able to complete not one, but TWO CDS!! :O But.. Afterall, it is an Europe country so the expenses and administrative fees + hostel etc are mad pricey. At the same time, HOW OFTEN DO WE GET TO HAVE AN EXCHANGE PROGRAM TO FINLAND!!!! :(

Unless i am able to raise 2k during my 1 and a half months holiday, which is HIGHLY IMPOSSIBLE! :/ Sighs* My dad says if he allows me to go, my bro would want to go for his Aussie trip too. HE HAS BEEN SO MANY ALREADY :( Why can't i have a chance. Furthermore, i'm going there to study :(((( He is still going to Australia anyway.
Dad says, savings not enough. I don't think i'll have a chance to get any subsidy from the school :(

Im in dilemma ~ Anyone has a high paying job to intro to help me?

Never too late to improve!

2011-02-01T23:13:00.002+08:00

Really havent been updating lately. Facebook, Twitter and Tumblr has officially taken over me. Projects have been hell especially Psychology. Its been CRAZY! -.- The other projects are done with my clique so i guess its pretty much not as stressful but i have to admit i didn't put in as much effort as i expected myself to put :/ Guilty*

Anyway, I got quite irritated with someone recently. I have no idea how i endured all her crap for so long. I probably just didnt want any conflict and believed that its just her personality. But hey! Its getting WAYYYYYYY OUT OF HAND. For now, i guess im just gonna turn away from all this shit. Being alone is no longer an issue. I supposed im immune. _|_

Just got back from a dinner with Xuanru. I havent met him for about a year i guess! Since we were separated from sec school. I really didn't regret meeting him today. Only now, i realise who are my true friends. Its like i really forgot how i can be MYSELF. The uber high and full of shit me. Yes, only with Jiahua i am able to do so. Otherwise.. Nope, not really. Of course apart from my usual lovely girls. I really havent forgotten those out there who really truly cares about me.

He has really motivated me to work harder than i am now. His class is so competitive that there is no chance for him to slack. His GPA is like 3.67 last sem! I AM SO ENVIOUS!!!!! & NP standard is pretty high! Now i really horrible, the standard here isn't as high but im still getting shitty results. Frankly, when we were having heart-to-heart talks just now. I felt that, omg yeaaaa, actually frankly, i havent put in my all yet. I still hv time to go shopping, watch tv all that shit! If i really want good grades. I should be really studying! & not just by completing my tutorial and do a few notes and claimed that I HAVE STUDIED for th day.

Yep! I have only waken up from my lala land now. From now on! I am going to study harder than before! That want-to-do-well flame hasn't gone off since i started working in CK. (Y) Lets all do well together! :D Well, at least for those wants to do well! :):) Alright, Wanted to watch tv today but change of plans! I SHALL DO PSYCHOLOGY NOW!

Things will be better!

2011-01-01T16:46:00.002+08:00

What are new year resolutions for this year? I'm sure everyone who owns a blog would definitely have a post like this ^^
#1. Have my pants size to be a 27-28
#2. Complete at least 2 marathons (10km)
#3. Run regularly and gym once in awhile ( I WISH I HAVE A GYM DOWNSTAIRS)
#4. Have my GPA to reach 3.0 AT LEAST!
#5. Be closer to my family
#6. Screw that temper of mine
#7. Spend more time with Adora Ethel Jiahua Alyssa Felicia (L)(L)
#8. Endure my poly year of 2011
#9. Improve on my bball basics.
#10. Be more responsible for my own actions
#11. Get a new sports hobby.
#12. Continue w my dance and do it well!

Well thats about it i guess. Since i'm done with basketball, but i wont give up! I'll keep practicing on my own. At the same time, i'm CCA-less now. Which enables me to have plenty more time to study, do my assignments and exercise. Hopefully i won't get lazy! & My drive of really wanting to do well is still present :):)

Things with my bro and I have somewhat improved ^^ Really really really happy!!! :D I mean at least we're not arguing as much and we're talking more! Also, just got back from my Taiwan getaway a week ago :D Its gonna be a new start and just blind myself from all the distractions in school and focus on the things i wanna do well. Dance, bball, running, studies and losing weight! Wish me luck ya!

Ohhhhh and its 12days till my 18th birthday! Although its my birthday but i don't really feel excited at all in fact. Just wanna celebrate w my 2 other sweethearts w the same birthday and my sec school's clique! Im happy to have just them (L) May Jiahua's knee recover quickly!! So weird to see her inactive. Decided to get myself a present for my birthday! Which will be a wrist tattoo!! :):) Havent decided on the word yet but its more or less confirmed!

Sun after storm?

2010-12-14T20:50:00.003+08:00

Hey all! Havent been posting for quite some time now. What have i been busy with? Errrr study and tuning my perspective i guess :) Everything is much better now. Although nothing much has changed. Except that I have decided to give up my beloved basketball and concentrate on my studies to get my ass to uni :/

Mid sem test has already started and i really hope i can more Bs than Cs! I need some encouragement for my efforts please. Not from someone, just from my grades. It would give me the best satisfactory. Anyaway! Jiahua is having her knee surgey in a few days :( May she quickly recover! I hate to see her sick or weak. Sometimes i wish i could give her some of my immune system. Or be rich enough to buy her bird nest every week -.-

I'd be heading to taiwan right after exams and i'll be missing xmas :( I really miss ADORA AND ETHEL BADLY!!! I havent talked to them nor have i seen him in ages _|_ Some friend i am~

Ohoh! I HAVE PINK HAIR :):) & im loving it. I shall have it done more before new year (Y) HEHEHEH Its addicting i tell u.

Also! I'll be getting a hamster when i come back and a TATTOO FOR MY 18 BIRTHDAY!! (Y) present for myself :):) Im finally legal in a few more days!! :D:D

Help me

2010-11-30T00:45:00.002+08:00

I don't have the energy to carry on with whatever i am doing now. You know, its the kind of feeling whereby you just wanna put everything you're doing down and stare into blank space with no one interrupting you. Its just you and the peaceful environment. No matter how much fun i play or have a mini getaway, it doesn't work anymore..... Everytime i go back to school, my mind will be : When will this ever end~. I enjoy studying really as well as basketball. But somethings, just don't go the way i want it to.

Take studies for example, i did consistent study for my bus stats but i screwed the test today. I was really hoping to get a full marks!!! I didnt know there was another question at the last page!! Although it was only 2 marks. Plus, i suddenly couldnt remember how to do standard deviation for raw data. MY MIND FUCKING BLANK OUT!!!!! The paper is fucking easy and i just simply lost 5marks like that. Am i born stupid or what. I admit i was pretty distracted over something before the lesson but IT SHOULDNT BE AN EXCUSE!!! I couldnt help but went to the toliet to cry. I was SO DISAPPOINTED in myself :( Advise me........

For basketball, I really wanna try to do better but i feel that i've come to a stage where i have to be good already and there isnt time for me to start from basics. Better with my mates now but i feel im a waste of resources and i should quit too. Like the other freshies. I suck. I realise that i have nothing i am good at nor i can boast about. May it be dance, bball, studies~ I can't even excel in ONE! -.-

I'm really really really lost. I don't know what to do anymore. Im just blindly studying now and just wanna pull up my grades from previous sem. Friendships are another problem. So is grouping for group projects. FML!

I hope everyday is like that

2010-11-22T00:04:00.004+08:00

Missing the girl above :(

Been busy this week end :) I like! Volunteered for Standard Chartered Marathon 2010 REPC event in which my job is to give up the runner's race pack :) Im counter crew with Charaine and Kuien! It was alot more fun then i thought ^^ Not to mentioned! Cute guy from our school passing me the Race shirts. HEHEHHEHE!! Win!! :P Partner Tingyi for the 2nd day as her friend couldn't make it :) Our friendship got closer too (Y)

Today's plan was to go Zouk with Babe but her mum last minute didnt allow her to go. I was afraid of that :( Frankly i was quite disappointed as i was really looking forward to it throughout the week and jumping around expo telling my friends how excited i am. But i don't blame her of cause. I'm sure she feels as bad :( Sighhsss~ Anyway, since i was so "sian" the whole day, i had no motivation to do any work. Cause my aim today was to play.. All i accomplished today was bathe the dog. SUCKS! I FEEL SO GUILTY NOW :/

Tmr have to head to expo again at 1.30 :) Last day of the event but i don't intend to stay till the end of it. I guess i wont be collecting my 20bucks n Ben n Jerry's ice cream :(:( !! Going to Sengkang to ball with Club21 friends :) & i only know one person there- Alex. Ohwell, who cares! I got the feel to ball tmr.

Need to start concentrating again from Tuesday on. Been wasting far too much time!! & I havent even done my weekly revision :( GUILTY MUCH~

FML LITERALLY

2010-11-10T01:59:00.002+08:00

I am so glad no one ever comes here to read. Its the only place to rant and i don't have to bother posting pictures anymore.

At the back of my brain there is a recorder on repeat : LIFE SUCKS LIFE SUCKS LIFE SUCKS..

Im not the type that usually say life sucks, i can't love again or i want to die kinda thing so easily.. But when i really do say it, i fucking mean it!

I think i've been placed in my comfort zone for far too long and now i'm facing problems which i dont know how to solve or overcome. People can be so mean and self centred and all they care is about themselves. They can pretend to listen and act as if they care. & the next, they will tell someone else saying: This person is crazy, so troubled over this kind of 'minor' things ( to them) for what. LOL! I mean like, if u really dont care, dont act as if you do. Trying to be nice? Dont even bother seriously~

& i don't have the energy to think about any relationship stuffs anymore. To me now, i am afraid of it. I think its a total waste of time. They rub salt to your wound. Doesn't apply to all i guess, just me. I am weird. Always have been.

Life sucks now!

2010-11-08T01:44:00.002+08:00

Another wordy post. Went out with mum today for alittle shopping. Brought her to the watch shop where i was suppose to get one for myself. Ended up she bought a DKNY one herself :( I wanted it ! Damn... I was looking around the shop and whoa! I had no idea Marc by Marc Jacobs came up with their line of watches as well! SUPER NICEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! But uber ex :( So eyed on a Adidas one instead but guess what! IT WAS LAST PIECE AND IT HAS A BIG SCRATCH ON IT!!! :(:( Now, i couldn't find it anywhere. I guess i have to make my way down to the boutique *sighs! Disappointed...

Anyway, told my mum some of problems over lunch @ fish n co. Feeeels like we havent talked in ages, Actually its a fact. I can't wait to go Taiwan with her. I need a getaway :( I wanna go clubmed with babe too :/

Goodnight world! Time for another dreadful schoolday in a few hours

True colours

2010-11-04T21:39:00.003+08:00

Lost again against NYP. Although i wasn't playing, i really wanted them to win :/ Like strengthen our bond together. Everyone are good individual players yet.. Wanted to see them like smile :(

Apart from that, Im literally drained from everything. School, friends, basketball, studies, relationships.. All coming together at once, im really not as strong to handle them all together. Nearly broke down in the train while telling Jiahua everything. If i wasn't in public, i might have just blown up. No one really understands me except her seriously.

Recently, alot of people's true colours are exposing. Im realised im not as patient like before when i was always with Jiahua, i always accept people for who they are and i expect them to. One of my principles of life is: Treat people the way you want others to treat you. But nooooo.. The people i know recently are always judging people and do not know who to put themselves in their shoes. SELFISH. I really don't understand how can people be so self-centered and all the care is about themselves. Jesus.. Vicious world~

PS: I hate people who judge me. So if you're not interested, STFU

I need to boost my self esteem

2010-11-02T23:51:00.002+08:00

Had our first POLITE game today. Bench warmer literally, but i got over it. I'm gonna train harder and i wont quit. Prove those who thought i'll quit soooon that i can be better!! It was really demoralizing and all during the friendly match but thanks to Alex, he motivated alot and it changed my mind ^^ Thanks yo!

He wanted to come over and watch the match today with SP but he lost his way :( He was so near yet so far. However! MY LOVELY BABIES CAME INSTEAD AND IT TOTALLY CAUGHT ME BY SURPRISED! I had no idea they were comingggggg. Especially Jiahua who pretended to forget i had match. HAHAHHAHA LOVE YOU GUYS!!! Ethel Adora and Jiahua !! (L) (L) (L) Made my day!

Trained back with Jiahua and suddenly i had the appetite to eat so went to have late dinner. Once again, i feel fat :( KFC for lunch toooooo. I need to run!!! -.- Thank god im ball-ing with Adam Andy Amos and Jiahua tmr during my 3hr break (Y) WOOOOOOHOOOOOO!!! Its been so long since i last played with them :( Excited* If only Seng Cheong could join us tooooo..

& after much thoughts.. I guess i've looked at the overview and the odds.. I suppose i've decided what to do. Im really tired being the one forever chasing. I wanna be chased too you know :( I cannot just replace someone who has lived in your heart for so long. & if time will tell, let me know when the time comes... Im seriously tired. About 1year ago, i was in a similar situation and its happening all over again. WHY DOES THIS KIND OF SHIT ALWAYS HAPPEN ON ME....

Exactly how im feeling :(

2010-11-01T00:37:00.001+08:00

Color Test - Results

Your Existing Situation

Feels her position is threatened or not properly recognized by others and feels defensive. Determined to go after her goals despite her fear of bringing conflict upon himself.

Your Stress Sources

"Current problems are seen as dangerous and threatening. she is angry a the thought she will have to continually put off her own goals for the time being, leaving her feeling powerless to change things. she feels used, overwhelmed, and exhausted at the demands placed on her. "

Your Restrained Characteristics

"Feels she is getting less than she deserves for all her hard work; however, she makes no effort to change things and tries to make the best of the situation."

Emotionally distant even from those closest to her.

Conceited and is easily insulted. Holds back emotionally but is able to find satisfaction through sexual activity.

Your Desired Objective

"Has too many problems and difficulties in her life at the moment, causing reckless and foolish decisions to be made. she needs to find a better escape before she causes her own self-destruction."

Your Actual Problem

"Feeling a lack of energy, she does not wish to be involved in further activity or give in to demands. she is feeling powerless causing her stress, agitation, and irritation. she reacts by becoming the victim and feeling as if everyone is out to get her. Demands with annoyance that she needs to get her own way."

Moral support

2010-10-29T20:41:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wish i could just pull away..

Im so tired from everything that has happened lately. I need strength. I need someone to be there who is able to understand, give me advises, hug me when there are no words for consolation, and not judge me :'(

Poly life is so far the toughest i'm going through. Who said it will be the most memorial time of my life? Who said it was gonna be easy? Who said your best friends will be found there? Bull shit seriously. Probably it was just me facing all these problems. Or and i highly believe it is my personality. I dontknow. I feel so vex everytime i go home, cause everytime im outside, im putting up a front. (Im alright, im okay, dont worry and to sum it all up with a smile) ...

I really miss the days before i entered TP. Anyway, at least im happy to know i have Jiahua Alyssa Ethel Adora Felicia.. Without them, i probably would have just died.

I love chompchomp. Never get bored with you around

2010-10-25T13:26:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was my last day of work. Grown quite attached to it and the people there for like 3 months (: they are nice people. I guess i can't just kick the habit of folding clothes everyday and start writing notes the following day. Yes, school starts TODAY!!! :O I havent had the chance to parteeeey during my holidays or chill much :(

This 3 months, from the beginning of my study break, so many things happened, alot of self relection done and deciding on new targets. Drifted from all my friends except Jiahua, YY and my collegues.. Felt really guilty for not being there for Ethel during her down days and Adora + Alyssa's O level days as well. Im a horrible friend :/

I don't know what happened to me this holiday but my mindset on alot of stuff has changed. For the better or for the worst im not sure. One thing im sure is that, my personality has changed. Moved on from my past and challenged myself to a new future. I don't want it yet i can't help it. My heart is screaming : Put yourself in other's shoes. Im in another state of dilema =/ Plus, im not even sure what im feeling. Its suffocating and insecure and wrong. I should serious fuck myself -.-

Okayokay, i shall think about it anymore. Not gonna help anyway. school has started and my engine is ready to fight the next war. Hopefully the engery doesn't just die out halfway through :( Got Psychology for my CDS and i've decided not to change it. Im gonna try to at least get a B for it! I swear i want my GPA to be 3.0 at least!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~

Got a new haircut for the new sem! :):) rash decision but im pretty happy w it . I can bathe faster and lesser shampoo used too! ^^ Hahaha. I should buy a headband for training (Y) Alright, i should prepare for school now starts at 4pm and i'v gotta leave house like 2.45 -.- Disadvantage of studying far from where you live..

Don't want to be just another of one of your ex

2010-10-10T23:28:00.002+08:00

Tmr is finally my off day! :) My legs seriously needs a break man. Its either working/basketballing/shopping/walking.. I really hope it doesn't get any bigger. LOL!

To sum up the week:

- Bball camp on Monday and Tuesday.

- LOST MY FREAKING NEW BBALL SHOES. (Used only 3times!) _|_

- Ran 4.8km during the camp. I wish i have the habit of waking up early every morning and run this distance. I'd be SOOOOOO THIN! :(

- Workworkwork. I like the sense of satisfaction when i manage to persuade customers to buy stuffs :P

- No time to meet YY at all! ZZZZZ...

- Met up with Kuien Shili and Ivy for lunch during our break. All working in town ^^

- Spent quite alot on my new CK Bag and a DIY gift.

- Offically broke.

I can't wait for tmr! I am gonna do all the things i like tmr! Meet YY (Like finally), Buy a new bball shoe +shoe bag, Basketball session in the morning with Webber and babe :D:D But training in the evening abit reluctant. Need to part early... Sighs* I wish i had more time.

Ohyea, gotten my results for the sem already. Its damn disappointing. Why is it that i studied my ass out and know my stuff well yet others who didnt study much can get better than me? Im not trying to aim anyone here but seriously, i hate it when this happens. I am happy for them but sometimes, humans are still self-centered right? Its seriously unfair. I dont get the results for what i work for. Its it just me or my useless brain. I wanna be someone and not just some bimbo who isn't smart :/

Kill me

2010-09-24T17:21:00.002+08:00

I want a family that is able to see what i like and support me.
Not pour me cold water and say im wasting my life doing useless things.
I want my family to encourage me if i fall and not say i suck..

My heart and brain are my devil and angel

2010-09-24T01:52:00.003+08:00

Heyall! Missing in action recently. Been busy with work and partying i suppose :X Did not follow my schedule accordingly to how i have planned it -.- Ohmygosh, i don't even know where to start.

16Sep- After work, planned to head over to Boiler Room at St James to celebrate Car's belated birthday with the Ck people. But... I couldn't get in. To admit, i was seriously damn disappointed and sad. I wanted to go in so badly. YY tried his best, but th bouncer was too strick :/ Had to go cab back in the end.

Come to think about it now, i feel bad pushing you away, but i had to control myself. I feel horrible whenever i think about your girlf :( Even if i could turn back time, i think i will do the same thing :/

17Sep- Supposingly, after work i should have headed to camp, but... I went Scape for Club instead :/ Yes, of course its with Jiahua (L) Had one hell of a time! The wait to enter the stupid club was FUCK UP seriously! I'll never go there again. Super unorganised. Nearly wanted to backout halfway if it wasn't for babe's persistence (Y) Thats the reason why we click.

After we entered which was nearly midnight, we danced for awhile but it feels weird dancing soberish. Hence, heading to our usual hangout bar to have a couple of rinks before heading back. Decided to try shots. JAGERBOMB! We were being chickens, so just order one for each of us and got the vodka that YY introduced to me :D

Who knew! Halfway thru, a middle aged guy approached us saying he would like to offer us his reminding whisky in the bottle. No, its not Chivas. So we were like, why not if its free right. Of course we did worry if it was doped. But his friend was a female so chances are... 50-50 i suppose. Hahaha. We drank it plainly on the rocks, about 4 cups each and woahhhhh~ We couldn't take it anymore. Its like 40% alright! &&&& and still called another round of Jagerbomb for us and even paid for us! LIKE WHAT~~~!!!! So yeaaaaa, free drinks. But, first time in my life. I AM ANNOUNCED DRUNK!! Holy smokes, we had to get out, so we told the guy we were meeting someone.

I don't think anyone will be interested to know the after-drinking-effect. So i guess i'll just stop here. Had the worst hangover the next morning over at babes house :O

18Sep- Still having slight hangover from the day before, headed home to freashen up and met up with babe, dick, Kevan and Joshua for our alumni BBQ :) It was a random BBQ but quite a number turned out. My first BBQ not eating anything. Seeing him.. The way he talked.. I guess, we are really history, you won't even look back. I should have gotten over you sooner. Now, being like an idiot still missing you so badly when i was drunk. WTF~

ANYWAY!! Went over to Orchard to meet up with YY, promised to acc him to celebrate his friend's birthday at a Thai Disco. At first i didnt know what to expect, but his friends were all friendly and accommodating :) Alsoooooo!! ITS THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE SEEING SO MANY MARTEL IN FRONT OF ME!! They were crazy enough to open 9bottles of it for the whole night (Y) I am so proud of myself for not being dead drunk. Just tipsy i guess... But idk why i still can't remember some stuffs O.O

I guess, these are the few exciting updates for last week. This week is all just work, training and hanging out. I miss JIAHUA ADORA ETHEL ALYSSA FELICIA ttm! :( Friendly matches are starting soon. Gonna need to buck up and go for training regularly to catchup! Results are out tmr tooo!! OMG LA! I totally forgot about it!!!!!! -.-
GOSH!!! ALL THE BEST EVERYONE ^^

Unlucky aura never fails to fall on me

2010-09-08T01:05:00.004+08:00

Its the exam period now for all poly students i suppose. Except DESIGNERS~ Damn~ :( Just completed my POM paper on Monday and i guess it was manageable, only couldn't remember some stuffs and applied the wrong thing a question which caused me a lot of marks! _|_

Not forgetting my Marketing paper today. Let me tell you guys something really dumb and i guess i could suicide -.- The day before today, I went over to starbucks over at Town to study ECONS. I thought today is gonna be ECONS! WTF RIGHT!!!!!! Elvina reminded me while i was online and FML SERIOUSLY~! It was already coming midnight!!! _|_ _|_ _|_ I cried as if more den one person in my family died -.- (Touch Wood) I called babe ( she was busy watching her Gossip Girls) and told her about it crying so badly... She was so patient, telling me to chill~ Managed to chiong-ed to memorize 9 chapters (while crying and shivering) I was fucking scaredddddd!!!! I had no idea how i did it. But thank god! i studied all the chapters before already. If not i would definitely not be able to make it today :) It was seriously a close shave....

My brain is exhausted. Filled with last minute Marketing. My mind wont absorb anymore Econs. I think/hope/pray that they are permanent in my brain now :(:( ! I dont wanna fail !! 60% siol~ Gosh!

Ohyes, i forgot to thank YY here! He bought me a muffin and gave me his candy :) I think he knows food energizes me :P Accompanied me after his work for awhile too. So nice right! ^^ Talking about food. I HAVE GAINED WEIGHT!!! I FEEL FAT EVERYWHERE! MY THIGHS, FACE, STOMACH, ARMS!!! I need to exercise - run, swim, lift weights, dance, basketball!!!! Anyone wanna volunteer to do it all with me? :P Besides babe of course.

Alrights, gotta rest soon for tmr's paper. Hopefully i can do it! GOODLUCK EVERYONE! (L)(L)(L)

Heartache

2010-09-03T01:12:00.002+08:00

I happened to read condolence messages on Jolene's FB about her grandparent. & i began wonder, how does it really feels. Not like i wanna experience it. But both my grandma has passed on and idk why i dont feel anything.

I remember the day my dad called me last year when i was having school saying my grandma has left us, Yes, i was in shock, but somehow it wasnt to the extent that i cried and ran home kinda thing. Instead I was just like : OMG?! Are u serious? I asked about the details and hung up. Yup, thats about it. Am i being heartless or?

Frankly, I wasn't close to my grandma to begin with. Her eyes only had my bro and even on her deathbed, she ignored me.. Sometimes i wish my brother and i are close to till we have endless topics together. There was once, we took the same bus and train together to different destination. We had nothing to talk about.. There was awkward silence~ It shouldnt be this way! Hes my brother yet... (sighs) Same goes for my parents, I cant seem to open up to them anymore. For example, i talk about a recent stuff im into or something to catchup, they will just pour me a bucket of cold water saying its a waste of time and i should concentrate on my studies..
How am I to communicate with them?

Sometimes, its really tiring and torturing. Its even worst then maintaining a tiring relationship. I guess im done whining~

Dance your heart away

2010-09-01T16:10:00.006+08:00

Finally im gonna upload a post with pictures! My camera hasn't been put to use lately :(

Teacher's day performance back at ChongBoon Sec! Hahahaha. I've been going back too recently :P All of us had to do our own makeup + hair and come up with our outfit. never really had such experience before. Last year's performance with 4E3 was enjoyable but there were loads of problems. This year's was really cool! Made more new friends and the outcome of the performance should be commendable as we only had like 2 offical and 1 private practice? :D

Ohyes, i've stop working for the time being before exams. Need to like concentrate. Im lagging behind :/ Gonna miss my cute anonnying collgeues :) EXAMS IN 5DAYS! "/

Going beyond your abilities, brings satisfaction

2010-08-24T23:58:00.002+08:00

Been really busy lately. Sacrificed most of my social life for work and studies. I feel extremely drifted from my TP clique. Missed the flea with them and meetups :X Im really sorry guys! :( Recently, decided to dance for Teacher's Day with Jiahua Satya and Jk. Most of them couldnt make it. I have to say.. I am not really enjoying myself for this dance but hope it gets better :) I am not sure of the steps still and the date is closing. Im worried. Not to forget my studies, Im EVEN MORE WORRIED! I promised myself, i wont let my job affect my performance in my studies!

Working at CK is really enjoyable i must say :) Friendly people, cute guys and good pay? Hahahhaah! The only thing is, its pretty slack and long hours. Other than that, I suppose its all alright ^^

Ohyes, surprisingly, there is nothing troubling me since the start of work. I have my aims and I intend to reach it. Although my family isn't supportive of me working and dancing.. I'm hoping to prove them wrong. I mean, may it be basketball/dance, I enjoy what i'm doing and I don't find it a chore nor its tiring. For it, I'll find time for them. I told my mum, i may not be the best basketball player nor a flexible dancer that you'll go WOW at but i enjoy what im doing. Its like a form of relaxation for me. Although it stresses me out sometimes and I will look down on myself but at times, it brings the best of out me too. When I exceed what i can do. I feel a sense of satisfaction there :)

When the worst and the best come together

2010-08-17T22:49:00.003+08:00

Today is a SUAY DAY! I swear it is -.- Let me explain the details :

First; I woke up just on time and knew i was gonna be early. Head for the showers and WTF? THE AMOUNT OF WATER COMING OUT FROM THE TAP IS LIKE DRIZZLE -.- I took freaking 25mins just to bathe :S & therefore, i was late.

Next, I flagged a cab from afar and it was those big cabs with a starting fare of 3 bucks with extra charge. Drove all the way to my workplace already and FUCK?! I FORGOT TO BRING MY WALLET AND I DON'T HAVE CK'S NUMBER OR ANYONE FROM THERE'S NUMBER T CALL TO INFORM THEM THAT I'LL BE LATE/ BORROW MONEY FROM THEM FIRST -.- Not to mention its only the second day of my work. For that moment, i wanted to just call babe and asked if i could go over her house but i knew i was gonna be irresponsible. So, the CAB DRIVER DROVE ME BACK HOME WITH THE RUNNING METER -.- Ran upstairs to take my wallet and the cab fare summed up to 20bucks plus -.- FUCKING WASTE MY MONEY. IM OFFICALLY BROKE AGAIN?!

Theres more, when i just reached CK and settled down, they ask me to go to th tailor room which is located at Forum. Its okay but i forgot how to sign in and kena scolding by the aunty -.- NB!

Also, after lunch, i was told to photocopy some stuff at Club21's headquater office at some place i had no idea where it was. They describe the place to me but i still got lost -.- Not mention, IT WAS POURING OUTSIDE! The umbrella was damn small and i'm wet (feet, pants, shirt and hair) Took me 53mins to get back ://////

But after that, it got better. Babe came over to find me! Had wanton meeeee :D:D Got a bigger portion cause i was starving!! Pineapple fried rice for lunch with Yu Yang wasn't enough :( I eat more than him -,- I feel fat* zzzz

Anyway, babe made my day really. We chat non stopped! :D From school to guys to old days to jokes to loads and loads of stuff (L) Her tumblr about me, awwwww i was damn touched too. I really can't do without her man! I think she is my other half. LOL! IM STRAIGHT PEOPLE* Dont misunderstand. Just feel that, shes all i need. Non of my boyfriend can ever replace her or match her. If there is someone out there like her, i would know he is the ONE! :D

Passion

2010-08-16T01:38:00.002+08:00

Hey ya'll ! I've started work and thanks to Kuien, I got an excellent job at CK Mens :D Awesome staff most importantly and good pay (Y) I like my job regardless of the long hours. Hopefully i can cope with my studies and I enjoy what im doing so i'm not gonna feel tired :):)

Had dance practice on Sat for Teacher's Day at CBSS :D Awww i miss dancing and im glad that im gonna work with the same people and a couple of juniors :D I hope theres time to learn 2 songs! I've decided, im gonna save up and learn street jazz or maybe something else! Im gonna find the one that suits me! Hiphop, i love the style and all but i really cant get the feel and strength out :/ Sighs* Im not giving up! Theres bound to be something out there thats suits me.

Study-basketball-work-dance.. I'm loving what i do now and i'm definitely gonna stick to it :D Who needs men!

No room for regrets

2010-08-13T01:35:00.007+08:00

Every morning girls wakeup and anticipates a good morning text sent by their boyfriends but for me, when i wake up, i don't feel any emptiness now as before, you never once sent me a good morning text. Prolly once. But it was always only good night :( You never wake up earlier than me and always slept later than me..

When guys ask me out and had everything planned and paid for, i feel weird, like i'm supposed to pay for own meal/movie and all. When guys have a week filled of activities like me and dont have time to hangout, i feel weird too. It used to be just me having a hectic life..

Sad to say, I'm not exactly over you and you are still part of my habit. But I guess our differences are too wide and my personality is probably too dominating so yes it was a right choice. Anyway, everytime or most of the time we talk, we quarrel. I do miss you though..

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I've only done so little revision this week and i'm starting work soon (this coming saturday) Really gotta balance my time and sacrifice social and play time if i wanna work :/ I really gotta buck up!!

Went for K session some time ago with TP clique :) Was a horrible day to begin with as my results for accounting is confirmed.. Hide my feelings and at the end of the day, i suppose i got over it and decided to work harder for the rest. Im not gonna waste my life regretting. There is no time machine which i can start all over anyway. The support from my friends too made me feel alot better (L)

Just gonna upload some. The rest are on my facebook! :D

Also, went to watched fireworks with my girls on Monday! We totally had the National Day mood. Hehe! Put tattoo on our skin that says "NDP 2010" hahahahha! It was fun. Adora even brought the light up Singapore flag-clapper thing! HAHAH!!
We walked alot that day I tell you!
Suntec-Marina Bay Sands Mall-Marina Square-Merlion-Esplanade. Not to mention walking around the area. HAHAHAH! Luckily i wore my fake vans. TEEHEEE (Y)

Oh yes, and went for my bro's SMU CONVOCATION at Resrts World Sentosa ytd. WOW THE PLACE WAS AWESOMEEEE!! (Y) No boyf to bring me go unfortunately.. :( Still hv friends!! LOL. Anyway, seeing all the uni students.. i seriously envy them. I really dont know if i can get into one ;/ My grades are bad....

I love my dress that day so.. camwhored!! (L)

Im over boys

2010-08-08T18:40:00.002+08:00

Sup! Abandoned my blog as its not fun blogging here anymore! :/ Im currenlty hooked to twitter and tumblr especially. Everytime i on the computer, Facebook, Twitter, Tumblr and Itunes would be the first :D Should I close this blogspot down? Anyway there arent many readers.
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This month has been a terrible month. Tears built up since my breakup was exploded all winthin a week -.- I don't usually cry like i always tell people and its true. Thank god for all my friends who were there for me. I couldn't ask for more :) My grades would be pulled down alot thanks to accountanting so i'll be working harder! Go out lesser and concentrate longer (Y) Motivate me people :D Without Jiahua in my life.. Its so boring and i can feel myself changing already. As in personality and behaviour. Im not as high as before and my tolerance level isnt as good as before -.- I hate myself..

Oh yes, i overspent this month on flea and more shopping ;x So i've gotta save up all over again and pay my debts of course. Hahhahah :) I can't wait to work at CK ! I always liked working. new challenges, new people, new experiences! ^^ Hopefully it all worked out according to plan :D But first, concentrate on studies~ I have to constantly remind myself. STUDY.STUDY.STUDY!

I feel like having a makeover too. Like a drastic haircolour, or a barcode tattoo over my wrist ( if my parents wouldn't kill me/disown me for that) !

Let me be in coma

2010-08-01T21:32:00.004+08:00

I hate my life i hate my life i hate my life i hate my life i hate my life i hate my life i hate life.

Have i ever demanded anything from you guys? No.
Have i always openly asked you for money? No.
Do i expect you to praise me? No.
Do i expect you to guide me with studies? No.

All these years, i have learnt to live independently. Yes, i lived on your money. I studied O Levels myself with the help of a tuition teacher. Yes, you paid for it. But i did my best and studied everyday without fail. You may not see my efforts but i expected you to have understood everything by now. When kor got into some shitty course, i dont see you scolding him, or saying how much effort he hasn't put in. Instead, you guys encouraged him and told him not to worry. Now he is a university far more expensive than the others, you guys did not say a word. Not like i got into ITE or private right. Why? Why isn't it good enough for you? I did my freaking best.. You may not see it but i reallyreallyreally did.. Was it because I didnt go to a JC?

Over this small matter, I have finally understood how you feel about me. Your impression on me and everything else. I know i am not intelligent, spendthrift, lazy, irritating and always having moodswings. But aren't im trying to make things better and improve myself? You don't understand me at all. I thought you do. Its so disappointing. Bias shit..

Now you expect me to be so irresponsible and cancel on the person. Can't I just it a shot for a month and decide? Not like if i dont work i will got to the library to do FUCKING RESEARCHES? Can't i just try to be more independent and do something for myself? I don't want t rely on you and next time you guys will say i am so useless.. There is never something I do pleases you. If i ask you now, what have i done to ever please you guys? I would say you couldn't name one. Making you trying to see my effort is killing me literally!

Asking me to control my social activities. Saying i go out of course spend money. I control and stay at home then don't need t work already? HOW BOUT I JUST BE LIKE MY RETARDED COUSIN?! Wouldn't that be THE BEST KID EVER! Not like Im not studying right. Not like I am asking you for money right. I just need your understanding. I am freaking turning 18 and cant you tell my mind is way more mature than you think it is? Even my friends can see it. WHY NOT YOU?! You guys were suppose to be my closest kin. Suppose to be people I can BE MYSELF and TELL YOU GUYS EVERYTHING ... But why is this happening..?

Should have seen it coming

2010-08-01T02:42:00.003+08:00

My impression on guys are getting worst. One word to describe them: DOGS. There isn't any better word to further exaggerate how fickle and mind-playing they are. One moment they go: Hey I love/like you. & the next, you see them having their eyes fixed on someone else.

I feel like a retard, what was i thinking? Gosh, I should have already seen it coming. I am so glad I lost my heart. Or else, i might be under my sheets sleeping on a wet pillow. I totally agree with Kenneth.G, I never say forever, because IT DOES NOT EXIST!

Whisper to me

2010-07-29T22:47:00.003+08:00

Monday
Had a really rough day. The only good thing was i met sky in the lab and he was my only company till my training started. Went to his lecture to watch some french movie. Hahahah it was interesting! But i was too tired to concentrate. Instead, i dozed off -.- OOPS!

Worst thing was I FREAKING LOST MY NEWLY BOUGHT THUMBDRIVE MY MUM GOT FOR ME NOT EVEN A MONTH AGO! !@##$%^&^%$$!~ I did our group's CSA powerpoint (dateline on wed!) for like an hour and i forgot to eject my thumbdrive from the bloody CPU! WTFFFFFFFF!!!!!!!! Me and my moronic brain -.- Not to mention, my training that day was horrible ;/ Keep kena scolded for things im unsure. YES I KNOW I AM SLOW. BUT AT LEAST GIVE ME TIME TO ADAPT. IM REALLY NOT USED TO IT :(:( Feel damn inferior and on the verge of quitting already. I have this feeling i'll never be good. It sucks. I suck! Nearly cried* BUT I WONT! I promised....

Tuesday
Being moody, i cabbed to school without hesitation _|_ Nothing felt right. & thank god for Elvina for constantly reminding me to cheerup and she even wanted to go back to school early morning just to search for it. AWWW! & had sky to help me look for it too! THANKS SO MUCH GUYS!! LOVELOVE (L)

Went Ikea with Junde and Luah cause Kenneth wanted to buy some stuff. End up side tracking and laying with everything and deciding on how our future houses will be like. They made my day (: Im so lazy to upload the photos. Another day perhaps :)

Wednesday
Had my CSA presentation. Overall, i think we did well :D Good job guys! Managed to rush out the powerpoint slides the night before. & I ACTUALLY WENT FOR ACOUNTING LECTURE!
Dom seah: Oh cheryl you're back! I HAVENT SEEN YOU FOR A LONG TIME! I almost wanted to call your Bro and mum.
Me: LOL! I know you miss me. -.-

Suppose to go for Kenneth.G's birthday celebration but so many people didnt go and Ivy and I had no idea what are they doing so end up, we had heart to heart talks for an hour plus. It was awesome seriously ((: Another friend found that i can confide too :D But felt ultra bad for not going for the celebration :( soooooo
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENNETH NICHOLAS GOH!

Thursday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR GIRL SIM JIAHUA!!!
Frankly, I wasn't satisfied with what I've done for her. Yes, not one bit. Its so little and not even surprising and horrible :( Even the cake, i had to rush it out and it was basically similar to Kuien's. I am a horrible friend.. Only had Johnson with me to help me with everything (: Thanks sooo much bro! If i didnt had you today, i would be at a loss. He even skipped school for Jiahua :P AWWWW RIGHT!

Basketball with the regulars. Adam, Andy and SengCheong :) Its been quite some time we played together. Had a tan. The sun was UBER HOTTTT I SAY!!! :O Oh and I jammed my middle finger -.- & it wasn't even caused by the ball. I poked someone's biceps -.- No idea who... I can't bend my finger now :( PLus got training tmr. DIE~~
I literally pointed my both middle finger to my mum to let her see the size difference o.O

Im not running, why are you hiding

2010-07-24T16:14:00.007+08:00

I seem to be busy every single day :O I have to plan my schedule one week before the new week starts and thats why i hate last minute changes in plan. Like seriously, I HATE IT! :X

Wednesday, met up with Joel for food fair! I've been whining it to almost everyone and he had to make it up to me buy gg with me :P Damn hot over there and ULTRA EXPENSIVE!!! -.- I feel pain for his wallet :O

Here is the 7dollar chicken rice we ate (Y) DAMN GOOOOD!

Carrot cake. Average la that one.

I heard the rojak and popiah was good lur! Aiya.. if only i had more money. I EVEN BOUGHT MY STICKY SWEET ALREADY! i want a customized one for my name! :D:D

Celebrated Kuien's birthday with the girls on Thursday! ^^ Had to backout on Andy and Sengcheong for our bball day :/ Sorry guys! & the celebration din started off well as there some miscommunication with Kuien and I :/ Made everyone alittle.. Oh well, i still feel bad. Athough idk what actually happened. Astons for dinner again and Vannessa had to leave for her BBQ first :( & Janelle was working till 10.30. So like a boring! Couldn't enter the bars as some still look too young. Kuien and I went to buy drinks for everyone :D HAHAHAH!! i chao lao la -.- LOL

Went by the river and drink and sang happy birthday songs. NOT TO MENTION CAMWHORE! Wasted sia~ All freaking broke so we couldnt buy more drinks. But still highhhhhh :P

Her cake we made! :):)

Friday, I woke up on time but had to wait for my mum to finish preparing so she could send me to sch halfway. She was late so it made me late -.- Late for RA tutorial and Dom marked me as absent so fuck it. Went to computer lab to do my dreamweaver instead.

Had lunch w Kuien and Jasmine before contiuning again. Its finally done! But i need to link them up. Poor Janelle has to do all the work :/ I feel bad. plus she has to work ;/ Luah came to Tampines to buy waffles for his girlf, acc-ed him and he acc-ed me to the polyclinic too. Made him late and his waffles were all cold ;/ SORRY CHOPSTICKS! Make up to you on Tues :D:D !

Thank god for him to accompany me. Or else the long would have killed me!!! & it made me unable to make it for training as well -.- Fuck! I had to miss the birthday surprise for chia ming :( AWWWWWW sian~ Wanted to bond with everyone :( Got home and realised someone in my family took my housekeys and i couldnt enter the house -.- Luckily i hadnt gone home earlier to take my basketball stuff, i wonder what i would do man ;/

Alright now, i have to get back to CSA E-learning. Looks so chim! ZZZZ. Must do better for it or else i'll fail badly :(

Movie with Kenneth.G on sun (: & i need to exercise!!!!

Inside im dying

2010-07-24T00:38:00.001+08:00

Life is not the same anymore

2010-07-20T22:33:00.005+08:00

Phew~ Tight schedule lately! Not one day I am free man. I dont even know where to start updating since i abandoned my blog for a week at least.

Anyway! Loads of projects lately and had 2 presentations in 2 consecutive days. Everyone had to be in formal and it was cool :P Photos!

Been sleeping really late recently too. Need to turn my bio clock back and start studying! I cant catch up with my work! & Thats bad! (for a slow learner like me :( ) OH YES! Not to mention im brokeeeeeeeeeee -.- I need to stop cabbing to school and eat lesser! So many people are celebrating their birthday this month too. I THOUGHT IT WAS ONLY JIAHUA! :O Hhhaha. Presents are expensive ~ :(:(:( awwwwwwwwwwww.

Going to the food fair tmr too! Hopefully things wont be too expensive there :x My allowance are depleting!! & I still owe J 10bucks. Darn! I NEED A PART TIME JOB! Any offers?

Blow me away would you

2010-07-13T12:48:00.003+08:00

Came across a random blog which made me recall something I was hoping you would say when we were together.

The scenario: Boyf was really tired- up will 6am, endured a crappy day at work and insisted on catching a movie with me just because girlf texted him excitedly earlier in the day- a horror flick she was meaning to catch was out.

Girlf told boyf don't be silly, they can always watch it another time. He said: "but you're always so busy. i need all the time i can get."

This kinda remainded me of my hectic schedule during those times and all you could do was wait for me to tell you I had time :( It killed me just thinking about it. I was asking myself, if I was asking too much from you. I am still wondering. Thinking about you nightly just made me felt miserable and cold. Trying to move on, step out of it, begin a new challenge, but it seems its something I fear to do. Maybe afraid to hurt others or myself.

But i'm glad you've found where you belong now (:

Loved you xxx

I WANT DURIAN

2010-07-08T23:10:00.002+08:00

These i feel its the coolest invention! I LOVE THE CANDY LIKE TTM!!! TP's RMT seniors were selling them in school for charity but i was too broke to buy any. Kope from friends though. Hehe! Im having an idea flowing now :):):)

Oh the candy kinda cut my tongue while i was eating it. Kinda sharp but its still DAMN NICEEEEEEE ^^ I want to have my own customized ones!! Happy just thinking about it. HEHEHEHEHEH!!

Been piling with projects lately and geeeees my laptop isn't showing me face sometimes. Lag like shit and my thumbdrive didn't save my files properly too!! I HAVE TO REDO MY MARKETING MIX-PRICE -.- FML! & I so need to start understanding my work. MIssed out so much thanks to rehersals for the last 2 weeks :/ I WISH I HAVE A FASTER PROCESSING BRAIN :(

& i can't stop eating this month. My stomach is like a friggin bottomless pit~ It will start bugging me every hour. & I can stuff anything and I mean ANYTHING into my mouth as long as its F.O.O.D -.- LOL!

Life moves on

2010-07-05T01:47:00.009+08:00

Hellllo! Im back with like damn lot of photos but im liek really lazy so only posting a few :P You can see them on my facebook and like them! ((:

Caught Eclispe with slow brainer Joel and omg it was BORINGGGGGG. Idk if I was tired or what, but both of us were dozing off and the aircon was freezing! & i think i can direct better luh. But honestly, it was much better compared to Twilight and New Moon (:

We're gonna catch IPman next! WHEEEEEEEEEEEE :D:D Heard its niceeeee

Yesterday was actual SpeechDay performance! It was a total awesome!! Everyone gave their best shot and it was a total blast! Im looking for the entire video of our performance! Anyone has it? :D:D Spammed loads of photos but no photos of the second dress sadly :(

Loving our rocker chic mohawk hair but the makeup~ Im not used to it yet. BUT! it was the first time i had foundation, blusher and fake eyelashes! Awesomeeeee :D I think I might start buying them :o LOL! Hahahah but its like an attention seeking hair & makeup when we babe and I were walking in town with J and Y. Hahah. Yep, they came to watch our dance. hahaha, bored them out a little :X oooops! xoxo Botak Jones was great (Y) My eyes were fixed on the satay though

Went over to Shili's house today for supposingly BBQ!! I went really late and didnt know tehy were waiting for me to start eating. I was darn lazy and had housework to do :( Picture spam!

The dog that kept leeching on me. Its sooo much bigger yet friendly than my dog.

Love songs moooood is back

2010-06-29T02:54:00.000+08:00

Wonder girls-JS

Offically missing you-JS

You have to say they are good! (Y)

I am still at that moment :P

2010-06-27T15:25:00.005+08:00

I finally did my hair! Not much of a drastic change. Just the colour :D Did highlights and luckily it didnt turn out to be like some ahlian :) Mum wasn't really happy about it but oh wellll~ I love it!! I need more volume man :(:(:(

Cant really see the colour from the photos.

Suppose to get my hair done over at ethel's reccomanded place but she wasnt feeling well :( So went to get it done with Melvyn somewhere else (: Hahahah! Lucky he didnt turn out to look like some Indian gangster as well ^^ HAHAHHAHA.

Dance tmr! (: Hopefully can get the routine done :D But gotta missed school on Tuesday for full dresss :(

I think I feel my heart

2010-06-27T04:06:00.012+08:00

Decided to use this hour to update my blog since I AM DONE WITH ONE ECONS ARTICLE! But i wrote it down instead of typing it out. Got lazyyyy~ I will do it tmr for sure! Its a must anyway -.-

Been really high and low lately. Can't really remember what i did throughout the week but I only remember it being really pack :X

Monday,
Missed first day of school thanks to dance rehersals. They said it was important as we would be going to Suntec to do see the stage and all but turn out, its just another practice -.- Totally wasted babe and my time. I MISSED MY MANAGEMENT LECTURE AND RESULT TAKING FOR THAT! Plus I had to rush back to school to hand in my CSA project which I spent the entire night doing.

Never once I did a project so last minute :/ I didnt even know the deadline for it was Monday -.- Hopefully I wont flunk it :(((( being damn shag, gave Ball training a miss and head over to babe's house to rot. Literally stoned on her bed! I couldn't remember why i head back to Tampines just to satisfy my chicken rice craving with Buddy's accompany (:

He brought me to this really cool place! Made me think alot again :/

Tuesday,
Had to miss school AGAIN! Missed all my friends :( Once again wasted my day -.- Although more people came. Even Felicia decided to join us :D:D Went to Suntec, saw the stage and all. Thought we could practice a few times on stage but wth? NO. We were only allowed 10mins for everything -.- Den have to dance and adjust here and there. SUCK BALLS man seriously -.-

Went Subway for lunch-dinner w felicia babe and melyvn (: Walked damn long just for it. Hahahah! I think I died when I got home. Slept till 11plus I think =/

Wednesday,
Back to school! Like finally! It was dreadful Wednesday again and CSA WAS A COMPLETE BORE! Had some stupid mock test & she went thru the test paper w/o giving it back to us first? Like a errmmmmmm? :O

Thank god for Seventeen Magazine I bought before class and Joel for acc-ing me text throughout. He was stuck at home too anyway. MUAHHHAHAH :P My phone was dyinggggg then and regretted badly for not charging it the day before thinking no one will text me. I think my girls know my expression that seems as though i was flying :X HAHA!!

Skipped Accounting lecture and went out w babe to window shop at city plaza. Sucks to walk around a mall w/o money :( No photos :/

Thursday,
Overslept for Marketing tutorial. Woke up by Ivy's call and jumped out of the bed end up kicking the wall -.- My poooooor toeeeeeeeeeee~ It was already 8.55 and lessons starts at 9 =.= Idk why but I ALWAYS SEEM TO OVERSLEEP ON A THURSDAY! Weirddd~

Went home to change and had a couple of drinks w babe at acid bar to get high before going PH before...

Before her mum called and spoilt everything. Why do parents cant understand us once in awhile :/ If I were in her shoes, I think I would cry. Sighs* PH would seriously be milllion times better with her around :D ITS OKAY BABE! There will be a next time!

Met up w my other girlfs, Adora n Ethel. Had alot of other people there. Which made me pretty awkward cause i totally had no mood to miggle at all. Lucky my 2 sweeties made me feel more comfortable before Joel came. Had the hard metal music. I wish I could shut them up then :X
Photos w them:

Sorry babes for abandoning you guys halfway! :(

First time staying till the end of the club. Awesome feeling but I felt lost after it ended. Not to mention im with a person who can't even walk straight which expects me to lead the way. HHAHAH! Pointpoints* Had a memorable night though! Thanks everyone :D:D:D

Friday,
Couldn't wakeup for accounting the following morning even though i was bombarded w phonecalls and texts :X Sorry girls! HAHAHA I couldnt even open my eyes. Met up w Daniel, sky and babe in the afternoon for our "double date". Hahahahah! Played L4D2 again! Whoot owned the last game. But still died :O AHEM* hahahahh!

Daniel had a plan for babe and I was part of it. & it was a success! It wass reallly DARN SWEEEEET~ :D AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW. Might be really common for some but its teh first time for babe to receive such treatment and i was excited for her too cause it was my first time witnessing it personally! COOOOOOL :D Even boyfs our boyfs never done such stuffs before and a guy who got lovestruck on the first day he knew her did something like that even knowing he might not get anything back in return. SWEEEET ISNT IT!! ^^

Made her the leading "actress", so we all decided to wear white and shes the only one in odd colours :P

No, we are not together. Its just for fun ((:

Had a just one can of beer and I got damn high 0.O I suck seriously~ HHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Babe got high w me after awhile too. Damn I was first -.- Im not usually like that. Wahahahaha! Had to waste Buddy's time to send me home but I had to eat first. So went for a Mac meal and feel better after that. HAHAHAH! i think i ate super slow :V

That sums the week. & I am going to say this again. I AM NOT A REGULAR CLUBBER! I just do when I can and when its the holidays. Idk how long since its been its over between Yx and I but one thing for sure is we're both back to our lifestyle and commiting to something is something I'll definitely consider more than twice. Hate & ultra afraid to have history repeating itself :/

That sense of security. Never felt it before

2010-06-16T12:19:00.008+08:00

Ohmy, its the second week of the holidays and I HAVE NOT DONE ANY OF MY PROJECTS! I am so dead. But meeting up with Charaine they all for our POM so hopefully can get at least 1 done! ^^

Filled with activities!

Went steamboat over at ChengWai's with babe on Sunday if im not wrong :D Met his friends and all. Hahahha! They are damn funny! :D Played lan afterwards! One of his friend came quite late, we finished our food and he still haven't come. So they made him eat like that.

Alone in the kitchen. Hahahaha

L4D with them was funnny too!! But keep dying. Hahahaha. Played versus mode. I tihnk Loelle and I are burdens to the team! WAHAHAHHAHA But we had fun ^^

Monday! Went for L4D again. But this time! With daniel, Sky, Ivy and babe :D Hahahahah! It was even more hilarious! We couldn't get pass a stage and we began killing each other. Points to Sky* He started it! Hahahahahhaha.:D Went to drink after our Touhua. It was suppose to be famous. But not as good as I heard :( Beer seriously makes me feel like puking. Not to mention being pissed off w someone on the phone ;/ Screaming at me over ridiculous things -.- made me glup my drink down~ ZZZZ!

Babe came over my house to prepare :D Camwhored! Hehehehehehe.

& we decided to go PH alone. Others would be asking why only the 2 of us? Won't it boring and stuff? But hey, Babe and I have this special ability to high ourselves!! :D We even started off the dance floor. HOW COOL IS THAT? I want to dance in front next time if i were to go on the 24th event :D Its way less squeezy!

Even made some friends. THE WORLD IS DAMN SMALL! They know babe's cousin! After don'tknow how long then know. Hahahahahah!! We went O.M.G!! & the song started playing O.M.G too! HAHAHAHAHHA We totally screamed our lungs out. Enjoyed ourselves ttm! Even saw Kuanleng. Like paiseh only ;X Oh well! I hope we can go again on 24th:/
Although it was just the 2 of us on monday, but at least we can be ourselves and not being judged :D Iloveyoubabe!!! She stayed over and for the first time we are not drunk! AWESOME! But we were starstruck :X

Overdue photos :

Went to see mayday's concert. I thought it was their concert. Ended up, some company's anniversary. Wasted my day -.- Im not even a fan -.-

You can't fix me, I'm torn apart

2010-06-11T20:47:00.003+08:00

How does she do it so well?! I wish I could too!

Enjoying dance practices in school lately (: Though it always clashes with something else :/ Learning our second routine now. Theres some ballroom dancing involved. AWESOMEEEEEEEE! Although im like a damn slow learner always a burden to my partner. HAHAHAH. BUT I LOVE IT! Im gonna keep practicing on my own to perfect it! Hopefully my partner won't change ^^ Got better chemistry with Melvin. YOU GO DUDE!! :D

I like my life packed with plans. Well, its better than rotting at home wasting my life away~ Also, hate it when plans are backfired :( Not blaming anyone of course. Just alittle sian now. I was soooooooo looking forward to it. Plus my stupid stomach wont stop aching!!! B*TCH~

Ohyes! KBOX with Elvina Shili Kuien and Jasmine yesterday (: Had fun! But all part too early :( Went to play pool at night for awhile with Elvina and Shili. We were BORED STIFF! & kept thinking if we should go Surge today. but.. Guess another time :( I'LL BE LOOKING FORWARD TO POWERHOUSE ON MONDAY! :D

Ohyes! Going for Mayday's concert tmr! :D Not sure what to expect but wth right? :P the tickets are cheap and good!

I won't lose hope in anything I do!

Yep, no change

2010-06-08T00:41:00.006+08:00

HEYHEYHEY!
Lack of updates lately. Ill just post up some photos from the outing with my lovely ladies :D Which most of you ahve already seen from my FB (:

Ohohoh!! Also had an outing with Tp clique straight after exams! :D Screwed the CSA paper like no one business -.- Gotta do well for the excel and dreamweaver! Im so not gonna get a low GPA because of CSA!! DAMN YOU!!!
Went Mindcafe!

Went back AMK with Kuien to kill time. Initial plan was to sing K withe Shili and Kuien but Shili had some last min plans :/ Dance rehersal was cancelled too.

TODAY!!
Im so happy i didn't waste my time rotting at home. Went out for a swim today! Did like 15laps :D Had a mild tan ^^ I feel FITTER already -.- Probablyyyyyy~ just my own wishful thinking eh :(

Had dance rehersal in school in the evening (: This time more people! Even Joakim is joining us. I feel like im the weakeast in the troupe again. WHY DON'T I HAVE THAT NATURAL DANCE CELLS IN ME!!!!! :( I hate myself ~ I AM GONNA PRACTICE!! ARGHHHHHHHHH :/

Sorry partner! Nearly killed your wrist today! Went down too fast. HAHAHAHHA ;X But overall! Enjoyed today. New routine! Hopefully there are more steps ^^ & I shan dao yao today =/ PAIN* MOAN* :(

MAHJONG SESSION TMR AT MY HOUSE WITH KUIEN SHILI ELVINA AND IVY TMR! Wooohoooooo :DDDDD

& Thats a wrap!

Im not sure

2010-06-01T23:46:00.001+08:00

If he misses you, he’ll call just to hear your voice. If he wants you, he’ll say it. And if he cares, he’ll show it. If he has a thought about you, it will come out of his mouth. If you are on his mind non-stop, he will do anything he can just to see you. If he truly likes you, he won’t let get anything in the way and fight back just to keep you in his arms. If not, he can’t be worth your time because you’re obviously not worth his.
Saw this form Elvina's tumblr (:

This makes me wonder.. :'(

Im done with boys

2010-06-01T23:04:00.003+08:00

2 Papers down, left 3! Pretty confident for POM but not sure for Econs. Yep! Hope for the best and expect the worst! :D All the best peopleeee :D

Everyone has been pretty down lately, hope everything will be back to normal and find their place to adapt in ^^

I'm running away

2010-05-28T13:06:00.002+08:00

Alot has happened lately :( Misunderstandings causing uneasiness and unhappiness.
A shout out to Grace Charaine and ET:
Just wanna say we will still be friends no matter what! We'll share gossips, whines and funny incidents. You guys were the start of my poly life and its not gonna end so easily unless you guys don't want me as a friend next time :X Although things aren't the same anymore, lets just forget everything and start all over ^^ I love you guys still!

Shout out to Sky, Kuien, Ivy, Shili, Janelle, Jasmine, Elvina, Van, Cherie, and Tricia:
Thanksthanksthanks so much for reaching out to me when I needed you guys the most :) I was uber touched and no words could explain how I felt that moment. You guys should know yea? Hahaha. nearly criedd. Since we're a clique now, lets not have anything that will tear us all apart. Friendships are seriously pricelessss! Cheeerios~ (3

Everything is back to normal now :D Studying and studying is all I do now due to the mid sem test. been going to AMK hub's coffee bean to study with Kuien lately and its great! I can rememeber the things i've studied! Pats on my shoulder* Until last night.. Coffee bean closes early so we moved to macd to study but its too NOISEY! Headed for a quieter location which is Yx's block. Chose a spot which I know he won't pass but who knew..

Heart skipped more than a few beats, had this frightened feeling and hoping he wont see me. but my phone's squeak sound gave me away when he walked back the second time.. Th feeling... What I saw.. I wished it all didn't happened. I rather stay in your shadows.

Nevermind, heading out soon to chill with JIAHUA ADORA ETHEL SHIHUI via Holland V. Try to be back early and contiune with my notes.

I know I'll see you again for sure

2010-05-23T12:35:00.006+08:00

Its been another long week. & I've been looking for yesterday to come. Met up with my girlfriends for shopping and they accompanied me to do get my navel done :D Loving it to ttm! Actually it wasn't as pain as expected. Just a little prick for me. Maybe its because babe kept asking me to look at her which distracted me. Phew* Thanks babe! Now I just gotta hope it doesn't get infected or something and heal well! ^^

Spent the entire afternoon at fareast with the girls after lunch @ Shabu Shi! It seems that we can never get enough of that place. HAHAH! Girls will be girls :P Our form of relaxation = shopping, heart-to-heart talks and eating. Guys= drinking, gaming and slacking.
Sian! babe had to leave first & even got a scolding from her mum. ZZZ, should've tried on the clothes faster :/

Sky met up with us in the evening for dinner w us at Pastamania (: HAHAHA! Saw the shy side of him! Never knew he had that side of him. Planned to watch backup plan but it was only showing in the morning! Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy :( Tried IP man2 and Iron Man even though he had watched it but all seats are full :/ Head down to AMK instead. Same problem -.- So went to pool instead. WTH! I ACTUALLY BELIEVED HE DONT KNOW HOW TO POOL! Gosh~ Moron!!!! -.-

Didn't do much yesterday but it sure took away all my troubles (:
Ps: Buddy! Sorry for making you travel all the way back to Tampines. I'll go find you next time ^^

Guess you're over it (: Good for you

2010-05-20T00:10:00.003+08:00

Im almost done with the CSA Draft! Final touch up tmr before handing in (: Once again its pathetic Wednesdays! 3hrs long CSA lab lesson but for the first time, I didnt have time to FACEBOOK! Amazing~ ^^

Helped up with the RMT's Notice board together with the RMIG community :D Only stayed for awhile though, had to rush the stupid CSA -.- Ohoh! & I thought Kenneth's $130plus shirt (if im not wrong) was from Giordano!!! HAHAHHAHAHAHA LMAOOOOO. Like wth? Who the hell wears a 100plus Tee shirt to school? Its like any other tee shirt :O

Pretty much lifeless now. Thank god for buddy, basketball and babe, if not I would be rotting at home all day or no one to talk to. I realise I have very few Friends that I can actually chat with :( I really don't have NU REN YUAN luh! Sad ttm! :/

Pain

2010-05-18T23:43:00.001+08:00

Pain comes in all forms: the small twinge, a bit of soreness, the random pain, the normal pains we live with every day. Then there’s the kind of pain we can’t ignore: a level of pain so great that it blocks out everything else, makes the rest of the world fade away until all we can think about is how much we hurt. How we manage our pain is up to us. Pain. We anesthetize, ride it out, embrace it, ignore it… And for some of us, the best way to manage pain is to just push through it.

-Quotebook : Grey Anatomy

I WILL I AM I SHALL I MUST BE HAPPY AGAIN!

Friends are forever!

2010-05-16T14:13:00.002+08:00

Crazy night last night man! Firstly, had RMIG BBQ over at XinYing's house. 4 story high house -.- HAHAHA. It was meant as a bonding session for all of us and it was a great success I feel :D Made loads of new friends! talked to people I've always wanted to talk to. HAHAHAHA. Waiting for the photos (:

When I got home, Msn-ed with sky for like 3hrs! Omg and we were laughing non-stop! Like some crazy machine gunnnnn~ We could laugh at any and everything. Thats how high we were. Totally forgot all my troubles for that night (: awwwwwww! THANKS AGAIN BUDDDY! The above picture was our main topic for the night. & im still lmao-ing while recalling! Damn funny! :P

Ohgoshhh~ AWESOME NIGHT :D

Catching up with babe later @starbucks :D WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! Hope she gets over her lost laptop asap! <3

Breakaway

2010-05-15T13:56:00.001+08:00

Dear angel of mine,
Where do I start to express how I feel?
Well, my love’s gone blind.
Now all that I feel is what I hear.
Your words rip and tear, and
Through my heart so weak and pure.
Now I find myself wanting to die

I bleed for the second time tonight
Holding the love that’s in my mind.
If only my love could be with you.
If only this pain, this pain died too
So I break you away, away, away from me.

As I sit here alone
Thinking about everything that you said.
You know since I’m alone.
Well, maybe after all, I was better off dead.
Cause without you my life’s gone down…
What do I do, when I find myself wanting to die?

I bleed for the second time tonight
Holding the love that’s in my mind.
If only my love could be with you.
If only this pain, this pain died too
I bleed for the second time tonight
Holding the love that’s in my mind.
If only my love could be with you.
If only this pain, this pain died too
I break you away, away, away from me.

And I don’t know I’ll break you away!
Said, I’ll break you away, away, away from me.
Sincerely Yours :(

-Dear Angel - April Sixth

I don't have words to express how I feel no more. Just wna say, I loved you..

Pamper me

2010-05-13T23:08:00.006+08:00

Been busy studying and trying to fit in as much social life in my routine daily. Can someone buy me one of those cute calendar dairy so I won't forget anything? :( Studied with babe last week @ starbucks and god I miss her! I have so many things to tell her but a day doesn't seem enough :( Same goes for Ethel and Adora.. I haven't met them in ages~!!! & idk what happened to poor Ethel's hand :(

Havent pin-ed my hair up like this for a very longggg timeeeeeee. HEEEEEE.

Hardly have time with CYX too. Been to his school twice to surprise him with my pressence (: Loving his reaction. HAHAHA. If i didn't went to find him. I think we might not even meet once a week :/ Sighs* & he is a girl magnet now~ Blood boiling sensation* ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~ Die bitches!

Ohyes! I forgot to mention. I HATE CSA! I don't hate the subject but I hate the teachers. They always don't make themselves clear of what they want us to do. Even the lecturers are mumbling to themselves. DUDE! Even I teach better. LOLOLOL. Okay just kidding. But you get my point. My expression throughout the lesosn would be -.-

Camwhored during break. The stupid teacher came to ask me if I was from the class. ZZZZZZ. Moron!!!

Crazy fun classmates :D

ANYWAY! IM IN BASKETBALL NOWWWWWWWWWWWW~ Sorry canoe polo, but this has always been my passion. So far the coach hasnt been shown ANY FORM OF HOSPITALITY for us freshies and havent even took to the effort to know where we are from.. Sucks big time. Where got coach lidat one -.- ZZZZ. & the captain show no sense of leadership too. Probably just th start :/

Alright turning in now (:
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If only you could make me believe in love again

2010-05-02T01:04:00.003+08:00

Does anyone believe in a love called letting go?

Well, I do. If a relationship no longer benefits both parties and unable to share happiness/sadness together anymore, why not let go? An old friend reminded me. I've been doing alot of reflecting recently and this is what I have concluded. I have no idea what my next step should be. Some part of me tells me give him one more month, another tells me just call it quits now. Pointless and meaningless..

Me: I've only seen him for 3hours for the whole of this week :(
Boy: Soon it'll be 3mins also don't have when the mid semster comes.
Me: Speechless*

Anyway, I suppose Ethel and I have grown up alot more! Till a point whereby even if we see couples being initimate in front of us, we are neutral. Our minds are BOOKS- 3.8+ GPA EVERY SEMESTER- UNIVERSITY-MASTERS. Im so proud of us (: Its like, we do not even have the time to moan over the past&regrets. I suppose these are all part of our growing process. The risks comes from every attempt.

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Went on a study session with babe, benedick and kevan this afternoon @CBSSmacd (: Caught up with each other and its so cool to see how much everyone has changed (: All becoming mature and doing our assignments on time and even revising though its only week2 of our poly life :D AWESOME!

Met up with my BFFs-Alyssa & Felicia for our Navel piercing but the person was on leave :( A wasted trip! :/ Also, I can't get mine done anytime soon due to my CCA in which I will be in touch with the chlorine water so regularly :( Ultra disappointed! I was so looking forward to it. & now I have got to wait. The girls are doing it tmr except for babe.

Back in the evening, babe and I headed back to AMK. Met with the guys again. Initially planned to watch Iron man2 but the timings were all FULL! Kinda expected it anyway. So went for dinner instead! :D Wheeeeeeeee~ Had my long awaited ruo zuo mian :D HEHEHE! Babe had to leave first after that :/ So we went to play pool! I had this 5ball left curse. I only won through my opponent going in the black ball with a follow ball -.- NOT POOL DAY TODAY! :S Benedick even said I hit my balls with a stripe ball instead of the white ball once! OMGGGGGG HOW COULD THAT BE POSSIBLE -.- HAHAHAHHAHA. Lmao-ed!!!

I'm offically broke again for the week :/ Alright, off to bed now! My phone is so quiet.... No one is calling/texting me!!

When a piority SEEMS like an option

2010-04-24T18:23:00.005+08:00

School was awesome for the first week (: Made great friends too and I'm loving my subjects as well. Its things that I can relate to which makes it a hell lot easier!

The above: Eileen, Charaine, Grace and me :D

Decided on my CCA too. CANOE POLO! Hopefully I can get through the tryouts! Wanted dragonboat but I guess I'm too weak for it and basketball? Im not involve in any team which also means its not applicable to me :( ZZZ!

Can't really recall much of what happened during the week but there are some overdued photos.

CYX tried to straighten my hair with the hair straighter, turn out= No diff. HAHAHAHAH! My hair only looked longer. Its always fun trying new things (:

Recently, my mind is all over the place. I can't decide for myself whats the best choice for me. Regardless of choosing a CCA, relationship matters, taking up a 2nd language or even buying something. I mean, I hardly feel so indecisive until lately. Its been going on for about 1 week and a half now. Its fustrating! I want to venture out to do something different and get out of my comfort zone but I don't seem to have the guts to do so. Its like getting a naval piercing with Alyssa next week. Im afraid of the pain and infection yet I want to experience how is it like.

HuiQing reminded me : Don't make someone piroity when they only make you an option.

Should I be selfish and ditch a person not caring about his feelings? Or just bear with whatever I am going through now and see how things go? Adora mentioned this morning, she can let go of her ex-boyfriend, but she'll never forget. & I agree! If there is a perfect situation that will benefit both, PLEASE SHARE!

If you ask me whats on my mind now and what do I intend to do? I would answer, I dont know. Just leave me alone for awhile.

I love your company, I love the way you hold my hand, I love the way you kiss me, I love the way you hug me so tightly and not wanting to let go, I love how you can't get enough of me, I love how you understand me, I love you..

B U T

I don't like how you can't comfort me when Im upset, I don't like how you won't initiate to bring me to eat my cravings, I don't like it when you can't be there for me when I need you, I don't like it when you won't accompany me to places you don't like, I don't like you always being so formal with me, I don't like it when you don't share with me how you feel..

Season2

2010-04-14T17:40:00.008+08:00

Back with loads of overdue photos! Babe and went to have some drinks recently after we failed to get in Supperclub. Darnit*

& Season 2 is back. Went Marina Barrage and someday! I promise myself I'll fly a kite! Its seems so coool :D

The guy above says he is gonna teach me how ^^ Don't ask me why are we back together again and all those lame questions. I understand that only the parties involved are the only ones whom understands everything (: Judging us? Just don't let me hear it. Situation is complicated (:

There's orientation tmr and WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! Benedick is accompanyign me go! :D I wont be an emo kid now :D HAHAHAH!! Hopefully its gonna be fun. Accoridng to babe and Junde, SOUNDS COOOL ^^

When I see you

2010-04-02T21:36:00.005+08:00

ImissmyB :(

Getting sick of my job. Facing piles of evelopes everyday esp INDIA'S is driving me nuts! This would my face everytime I see it. (Ps I know its ugly)

Only working with the new boys for 2-3days, they already found out that Babe and I can't resist food! -.- They always remind us the amount of fats contained in it. For example: 2g sat fats per serving of prawn crackers! 0g fats for gummy burger! O.O AHAHAHAHAAAA! Babe and I have been eating ALOT I meant ALOTTTTTT lately. Even the kopidiam uncle was secretly laughing at us girls :(

The aircon is damn cold there toooooooooooooo!

I've got a couple of stuffs to buy in mind now. I NEED MY PAY FROM SWENSONS! I can't fork out time to go collect it. Hopefully I'll be able to do it this weekend. Need more gym-ing sessions too! FATFATFATFATFATFATFATFATFATFAT~
I WANT TO WATCH WHEN IN ROME & CLASH OF TITANS 3D!!

I will get what I want

2010-03-29T00:28:00.008+08:00

Babe joined my company just on Friday! :D Had loads of fun and stuffs to chat about. With her around, everything seems fun! Serious (: I'll just pictures do the work. All we see are blue and white colours + membership numbers (: Although its a slacky job, but it sure is tiring! Also, this job makes me hungry every 3hours. Im FAT now~ __

Yes! Its INTEL~

The following day which was saturday, planned to go out with babe for the whole day for shopping and flea! Buttt.. decided to go to BoonHong's commisioning ball instead :( Feeel really bad for pangseh-ing her and left her with her netballers. But she understands. LOVEYOU BABE!!! :D

She still accompanied me to get my dress for the ball (: Love th colour but i think i look fat. & the ribbon looks off. But w/o the ribbon, i'll look like a bride or something :( Oh well~

Met up with BoonHong and his friend with his date and cabbed down to Shangri-La. Awesome place! Headed to the ball room to mingle around and took photos. Kinda awkward but at least he kept talking to me. His hand had a surgery not long ago and I supposed it was hurting like HELLLLL~ He was enduring it all the way and it began swelling lke crazy. Ouch :(

I was also the youngest there. The girls there were all either working or in University year3 already :( & I'm only 17. Okayyyyy~ All had diamonds on them and the most expensive thing was my mum's Swarovski necklace. HAHAHAHA!

Table photo (:

& overdue-ed photos. Yx came to fetch me from work. I look horrid :( The flash was too bright and out eyes went -_- ZZZZZZ

Fire burning on the dancefloor

2010-03-19T14:28:00.008+08:00

Jello!
Monday 15March10
ROMP V with my lovely ladies Jiahua Ethel Adora ShiHui! Along the way met up with YaHui QianHua and some other people (: Man! Adora sure has a huge network of friends. She met so many of her friends outside of Zirca/Rebel. Hahahaa. & I didn't even spot a single ChongBoonite there -.- This is seriously sad. (Laughs)

Anyway, the beginning atmosphere was kinda low and buey high. Babe and QianHua were the only ones moving the most on the dancefloor and slowly babe got my high mood up ^^ Had some dance competition then which kinda bore us out. Decided to head for Rebel instead but turned out, WORST! Hahaha. Went back t the dancefloor after the competition was over and dance all crazy w babe ^^ The rest headed t rest first as I did promise babe I would high with her all the way as she didn't enjoy th first time.

Head out for some drinks with Ethel's friends. Junjie Ken and WeiJian (: & after th drinks, Babe, Ethel and I were too high t think of anything. Hahahahaaaaa. It was a hell of a time seriously! One of us took one guy each. LOL. Kindaaa~ Can't really remember. (Sighs) I wouldn't head back home so soon if its for my parents :(

Looking like idiots over here. Hahaha!

Now I can really understand.. Words spoken when drunk are sober. Actions done when drunk are what You dont care and don't know what you're doing (: Ethel is right. What happens in th club stays there (:

P.s: I didn't take any photo with Ethel ! :( Sorry girlllll~
Tuesday-Thursday 16March-18March10
With just a few hours of sleep, I had to prepare for work the following day. Babe stayed over at my place again and she had t wake up at the same time even though she had no work. Sorrrry sister! :/ Hangover~

Work has a goodpay and a slack job! :D Working with Yiliang is boring too. ALL HE DOES IS WHACK ME! :( & its srsly pain~ ZZZZ. He looks like a butch from side/back view. HAHAHAHAA! I even slept for about an hour on Thursday~ I must be damn tired -.- Nothing much actually.

Friday 19March10
ITS OFF DAY! Idk why but the person in charge just told us we need not come till Monday (: Probably work all done :D Watched MIO with maggie today. My mind is still flooded with this guy called CYX! Sounds dumb right.. Thinking of him when I was the one who let him go in th first place. Lol~ He isn't gonna view my blog anyways so no harm posting this. (sighs x1000000000)

WeiLun said he is coming to meet me at my house downstairs now. Feeling really reluctant cuase I don't really know him too. But ohwell, whats there to lose. Since its just downstairs. The weather is making me sooo lazy. But loving rain when I'm home :D HEHEHEHEE

Memories

2010-03-15T13:01:00.006+08:00

I miss NP life :(

Joined NPCC not due to interest but parents idea. Went in oblivious to my surroundings and just wna get through with it during my four years. After attending NPDP, perspective changed. Made sisterhood with my Saiful my girlfriend (: Both of us just wanted to do our very best in NP. Regardless of what rank or post we would get. We just hoped for the best and expected ofr teh worst. It wasn't a MUST. That made us happier in a way ^^

Year4, competition began to arise. Many started judging one another and our squad sprit disappeared. It became individuals and cliques that ruled :/ Conflicts over conflicts till annual camp. CIs reminded us about teamwork and our last event that we would be organising.. & now after we POP-ed we miss those days LIKE HELL!

Np built discipline in me. Frankly, w/o Mrwong and the other TOs that have kept a close watched on me before I became SI, I would be letting myself down even if I'd become SI. My continuous lateness was a problem. Also, the only problem. Though it was extremely stressful then.. Being watched like a criminal, I now feel its all worth it (: W/o TOs, CIs and my sqaudmates(Most importantly somehow), I would've given up long before and turn bad.

Come to think of it, the conflict with C&J kinda made me ake up alittle :X Okkkkkkkk~ Just wna say I really miss those days! :( NPDP -CL Camp -Bintain trip- Annual camp- P.O.P

I just suddenly miss NpCC alot :( After viewing this year's CL camp photos

Wake that board :D

2010-03-12T15:39:00.002+08:00

Wakeboarding as a CCA? Should I? It seems bloody hell cool and fun! But i'll be charcoal black and not even just tanned :( Spam sun block?* :D Hehehehehe~ I wanna learn those stuns! & I don't mind doing this everyday man :P

What about dance? AWWWWWW~ I'll think abou it

The only exception

2010-03-10T15:00:00.005+08:00

This is so inspiring. So cool to see all the singers gather together for this song. Fast forward alittle to skip Jamie Foxx's speech.

Theres only one word I can describe my life now : LIFELESSS! All I do is mahjong or rot at home with my tv :( Thank god for babe to have a half day off and we went shopping! :D Plan was to acc her shop for her club dress. But I ended up buying stuffs for myself instead. & its kinda ex :/ However, I LOVE IT ^^ Got a new heels. Hopefully its able to let me walk for long distances.

Had heart-to-heart talks with babe yesterday too after dance. It seems that HOW LONG YOU HAD LOVE SOMEONE, WOULD BE HOW LONG YOU'LL NEED TO FORGET THAT PERSON. Also, one will have the urge to do all the things they couldn't do when they are in a r/s. I feel it isn't just a moment of recklessness yet ways and means to find ways to break all ties with one another so both would have no reason to love that particular person anymore (in a way). Hence, changes in personality begin causing even more hatred and disappointment. It also could be that one wants a new life and feel that dwelling on the past would not be any better. Instead, moving on would be the only solution and end up doing doing silly yet fun things to find the real "you" .
Lol. Idk why I started thing of such things. Probably the people around me is facing similar situations. True or not.. I'm not too sure. Anyway! Cheerup people! Just rememeber that there is someone out there whom will understand you truly so don't feel that you're being flirty or a sudden slut. True friends understand it all (:

Smile it out just like this! :)
Strive to be bulletproof

Man! I'm missing Taiwan's food badly!